heyheyhey... 8hours more before 2009... hv u all set ur resolutions for the new year.?? i have 3..
1.Lose weight 2.to fulfil my goals in life which i can afford to fulfil (To be a certified Barista..succeed in Marine engineering..Open up my own cafe..) 3.a completely new year for all..no more heartbreaks,no more crying,no more suffering..all tt no more..live lyfe to the fullest..cuz lyfe is short..nvr regret anything tt made u smile..n lurve truly..nvr look back to the past..
That's my new year's resolution... To all my beloved friends, Happy New Year..Nvr look back on year 2008..
Boredom...tt's wad im suffering today.. as well as diarhorrea...feels better today... tomoro work graveyard shift..it's eve of New year..n im counting stock..!!! wad a lyfe...can't celebrate countdown... im still broke..arghh...pay come at 6th Jan.. im gonna need ciggies tomoro...Definitely.. any ideas ware can i dig for money?...my piggy bank at home empty liao..hahakz.. Darn..i should start making a habit to keep my coins instead of donating it or giving it to ppl...or else my piggy bank will forever be empty... pay come on 6th jan oso makes no diff..my mindset nw to save $400 by march.. to fulfil one of my goals..tt is to go to Highlander Coffee for their 10hours of barista training.Can u imagine..$400 for 10hours of training..but wad to do..it's one of my goals..n i will hv to fulfil it.. oso when pay comes..i may hv a suprise for bro imran...hahakz.. hmm..January Babies..i wonder whether i shld get something for them..Tag me January Babies..so i will noe who..^^ and oso..Saving up for a 2D1N holiday at bintan..not sure whether it's confirm onot..but i hope it will be confirm soon..cuz not many ppl going..*sobs* That's all...tyme to continue my boredom night...wish tt the night can pass by alot faster today...LOL..
Hey yo... change my blogskin..kinda plain..but i like it..hahakz.. 30dec..3.35am..still havent sleep..hahakz...diarhorrea ar..hahakz.. in n out of the toilet..lol
yo... didnt went werk today...having diarhorrea...sad.. okae..new year is coming..have u all set ur new year resolutions? i got 3 resolutions... how bout u guys/gals?...tag me... i wanna noe..^^
hey.. <28dec>today's a great day..believe it onot..i came to werk with a smile..i came werk happily..i dunno why...but it just happened.. but i noe..my mind were elsewhere..yeah.. i been having stomach upset for 2days..!!!..damn steamboat.. i been listening to some of Ronan Keating songs these days.. there is this song titled "The Long Goodbye"..check out the chorus..
This is the long goodbye Somebody tell me why Two lovers in love can't make it Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart? No matter how hard I try You're gonna make me cry Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it All that's happening here is a long goodbye..
interesting...been hearing this song repeatedly today.. yeah..today..somebody reallie irritates me alot..who else other than lil sis crystal..!!!...she's damn talkative today...hahakz..took bus 31 together with her n lil sis radhia..^^ all lil sis radhia could do is juz smile n laugh..hahakz.. sometymes..her smile do make my day better..n she juz did.. same goes with lil sis crystal..hahkz...u both make my day.. one entertain me..the other one juz smile n laugh.. juz brighten up my lonely day...Thanks Ladies..lurve ya..
my mind is still elsewhere tonite..hahkz.. i cant sleep..!!..i do need to start taking sleeping pills again..LOL.. okae..signing out...Lurve u all who were with me today...thanks once again lil sis radhia n crystal.^^...
heyheyhey...today is fun,tired,dizzy...hahakz.. no tyme to blog today.. watching Titanic at Star Movies nw... see ya...^^ Lurve ya all who werk with me today..^^
Things tt makes my day todae.. *Werk hv been great *Got e website from lil sis Radhia bout haunted hotel game..??LOL *Reach home early to watch Liverpool against Bolton *got Heroes season 1 *Great day
Things tt didnt make my day today.. *Tired *Dizzy *Totally broke(money) *No ciggies *No one cooks at home... *Lost the papers i've written bout prices of the cameras mira wans me to check..*sobs*
things that make my day today<23rd Dec> *slept from 11am till 7.30pm... *watch movie Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles III (1993) *Lil Sis Radhia change Hp number *watch movie The Wonders (That Thing You Do) *Finding movie Kickboxer 1,2,3,4,5 to download..
things that not good today<23Dec>.. *Having a bad headache *Diarrhea *Lil Sis Radhia still not feeling well.. *Appetite not good.. *Lappy hard drive space getting smaller
LOL... still figuring how to write a song.. it's like writing a poem..
i stuck with only two verse.. Your smile,you have a sweet smile; it's like an angel smiling down on me,Yeah Your eyes,is shining bright on me; i won't deny that i can't take my eyes off you.
If i could have one wish; i would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck and the feel of your heart beating with mine.
so..i don't actually know wad to do...i only got this 2verse..thinking of the stucture of the song..the rhythm of the song..n most importantly..the meaning of this song.. looking at the verse..hmm.. help me can?..hahakz...tell me..how is this 2verse..?..any idea wad to write for the chorus?..wad's e meaning of this song..??..tag me..^^..
22nd DEC..Woke up late tis morning...supposed to werk at 12pm..came at 2pm...worse thing..i took a cab to werk..cost me $18..zzzz..reason cuz our BM is in store..so now...i'm OFFICIALLY BROKE....damn... work as usual...but today..like blur..kinda mumbling to myself..till customer cant hear wad i asked.. was bout to finish work..suddenly a suprise package came..hahakz..it's Shida n Zizi..hahakz..Helo to them..they drop by pw for a while..glad am i to see them..hahakz..(memories of her flash back again when i saw shida..they look alike..only their skin colour..more worse..when shida wears specs...look EXACTLY alike..)...went home took bus 15..saw them again..hahakz..sit beside them..(again memories flashing back..)..(sorie shida..i better not tell u tt u n her somehow look alike..or else u will feel awkward..)...den stop at tamp..took bus 969.. yeah..im going fishing ard 1am...wish me luck..hahakz..TUESDAY is my only off day..need to rest well too... GTG...Thanks shida n zizi for dropping by pw..miss u gerls(shida,zizi,mira)...drop by more often...hahakz...
Wahahahakz..i got dark rings below my eyes...it means i need to have a 12hour sleep... but no tyme..hahakz...work is okae today...tiring..but enjoyable... cant wait to watch Arsenal vs Liverpool...im a fan of liverpool... nothing much to blog today...so see ya.. lurve u guys/gals whom i miss today...err...who i miss??..hahakz....see ya..
201208....i'm 20..Happy Birthday to me...working during my bday.. got a present from zura,crystal n wana..they all share to buy me a levis tee..Thanks girls..appreciate it much.. kinda tired...i think alot lately...total i pull of almost 5white hairs...oh goodness..i been really thinking alot..thinking bout my future,my lyfe now,planning to open up my very own cafe if i hv the money..(now definitely can't..it's like waiting for money to drop from the sky..)..hahakz...but mostly nw..thinking more bout my lyfe..been going through a rough tyme after breaking up with her..but at least for now..im happy n glad..im still standing up strong...yeah... but there's this dream tt keeps appearing..a voice..saying to me.. "be careful..someone out there will hurt u..be strong..n stick to ur beliefs..u hv changed..don't look back to the past..just walk straight..love comes and goes..believe in urself..u will start to love again anytime when ur ready.." e voice..remains mysterious in my dreams..juz a voice..nothing else.. but whoever was tt in my dreams..i would like to thank u..i will noe who's harming me and who's not..so far..no one is hurting me..i've changed..i nvr look back..even though memories of her sometymes appear in my mind..i always believe in myself..nvr i hv any doubts to myself..im ready to loved n be loved..cuz tt's who i am...
lol..yesterday finally lost my patience to the new beanie named lilian...she's juz totally slow...2030hours i went for dinner...den she got rush in..but onlie 4orders..not alot wad...first costumer came at 2032..she settle the order at 2042...den nxt customer came at 2040..she settle it at 2052...another customer came at 2042..she settle it at 2055...last customer came at 2045...she settle it at 2105.. when i came back from dinner..i already hv customer coming back..asking where's their drinks n cakes..den i blur... finally angry...i slam things in cafe...den tt lilian went inside mcdonalds...n cried...LOL...arghh...don't talk bout tis...or else more frus i become.. Today...im gonna eat swensen i guess...wana can't tag along..so it's just myself n lil sis radhia..it's eve of my birthday...back from swensens..hah...got company..myself,lil sis radhia,sis may,sis zura and a new girl in mac named suziana..hahkz..nice name though... we all went to swensens together..it was great..hahkz..although it burns a hole in my pocket..but to see the others happy..i dun mind..lil sis radhia very funny..hahkz..she dunno how to use knife to eat..cute..hahakz.. after tt went to famous amos..bought 820g of cookies..for bro rock,oiling,kak saniah(mak),lil sis ikah n marvin..total spend ard 150..LOL... Thanks guys/gals for accompany me on eve of my bday..appreciate it lots.. thanks lil sis radhia..for saying it's awesome..hahakz..im most happy to treat u..as long as ur happy n having fun.. once again thank u all...Happy 20th birthday to myself in 2hours tyme... Lurve u guys/gals who were with me juz nw...*cheers*
Feeling good today..work is okay..lil sis radhia wait for me n bro rock till we finish at 11pm..pity her..lol..5hours++ waiting..so let her use my lappy.. me n wana had a task to do..hahakz..to design n make a pattern using the helping hand paper... firstly..we decided to do heart-shaped..hahakz..we're not tt artistic..we can't even do proper heart-shaped..shame on us..hahkz..decided to do "M"..Lame ryte..hahakz.. den we came out with another design..a christmas tree...this tyme..SUCCESS..hahakz..who says we dun hv artistic talent..LOL actually i don't like to draw art...but i appreciate art lots...like to watch,stare,see art..hehekz... work ends..went back with bro rock n lil sis dhia..i decided to drop tampines..so i can bussed 969 home..along the way to tamp..hahakz..lil sis dhia kinda irritating..hahakz..but too bad lil sis dhia..im a guy full of patience..i can take it..so irritate me more..n i shall disturb u more..hahakz..she laugh n smile lots today..good to see her laugh n smile today..just make my day..hahakz..seeing everyone happy..cuz if u all happy..im oso happy... tired nw..tmr got plans before proceed to work.. Arghh..tmr work with the slowest ever beanie i ever train...im patient enough to train her..patience is a virtue..hahakz.. okay...bed is calling me...hahakz...Lurve u guys/gals who's with me today...thanks lil sis dhia for waiting...hope u wont get a scolding from ur parents... bro rock..our secret is between us..i just hope it won't worsen..lol.. Nytez...!!2 more days.!!!..wee..
Kinda sick today..my tears kept flowing out..lame2 can become like kassim selamat.. my feelings is not ryte today..have doubts...wad kind of doubts i oso dunno..but i roughly know wad's going on...but i won't tell it here...it will be awkward if tt person would really read my blog... remind myself again not to be weak n soft-hearten when it comes to love.. yesh follow the flow of lyfe..but for love..don't always be.."nanti kene pijak kepale lagik"..in english..later been taken advantage again..don't want that to happen.. kinda sleepy... Btw ladies..u all know who is Tom Welling??... i feel tt onlie few knows him... if u ask me, who is the hottest,sexiest,charming guy in hollywood.? i won't say leonardo dicaprio,brad pitt,jim carrey or even pete wentz.... from my point of view...the person who looks good in every way..in photogragh,acting,model,personal life..it's gonna be Tom Welling.. i'm nt gay or wadsoever..coz i been watching Smallville from Season 1 till now..Season 8..he oso appear in Cheaper by the dozen 1 and 2..and oso the movie "The Fog"..he just looks great...show u a picture or two...
seriously..i can't wait for episode 11 in season 8..it's getting more complicated... chloe been kidnap by the destroyer whom is actually davis..aww...the love of his life..jimmy..chloe's newly wedded husband is in critical condition..n clark determined to find chloe...tt is wad happen on episode 10.. Louis n Clark.. Last but not least..pictures of smallville...before i sign off...
<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on11:18 PM
day starts with me waking up late for work again...worst still...slept in the bus..waking up to know that i miss my stop..went straight to Suntec city..haiz.. bus 36 damn lots of ppl ard 1730hours.. reach work..didnt talk much.."y ur face so moody?"..someone ask.."y nvr smile?" LOL...all i know is i don't know how to smile..seriously..i got a problem..i can't smile..but ppl say i hv a nice smile..but look myself in the mirror..only to see my chubby face,kinda fierce...BUT hey..im not fierce..i wonder y some ppl afraid of me.. get to know me..den u know i nt fierce..Duhh..!! finish work..unexpectedly..i juz buzz off..nvr like sit down n smoke ferst.. i wonder wads wrong with me today..can someone tell me..??...i even reach home early.. Forget it..juz change my blog song..a nice song from maroon 5..called "not falling apart"..here's the lyrics.. miss my frends today..hahkz..weird..
Ooh…
Danced all night, slept all day Careless with my heart again Fearless when it comes to playing games
You don’t cry, you don’t care Afraid to have a love affair Is that your ghost or are you really there?
Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore Since you walked out the door And now I’m stuck living out that night again I’m not falling apart
Ooh, oh
Weather on a sunny day Time slows down; I wish you’d stay Pass me by in crowded, dark hallways Mmm
Try my hardest not to scream I find my heart is growing weak So leave your reasons on the bathroom sink
Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore Since you walked out the door And now I’m stuck living out that night again I’m not falling apart
I heard you say you needed me now What’s the problem I can’t see You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again I’m not falling apart
Take what you want I will be just fine You will be better off alone at night Waiting and falling Constantly calling out your name Will it ever change?
Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore Since you walked out the door And now I’m stuck living out that night again I’m not falling apart
I heard you say you needed me now What’s the problem I can’t see You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again I’m not falling apart
Today was great...9am werk..came at 10.30am...LOL...kena lecture by boss..hahakz.. go in left..go out on the right..seriously..im punctual at a certain occasion..but i don't know work..i like to turn up late...LOL work in cafe..bored..no customer..so work at mcdonalds..hahakz..Fun.. den at 3pm..back at cafe..WOW..me n taufik been hit by lots of customers...within 1hour..we made $200 sales..WONDerful..hahakz..work with maryam till 6pm..went dinner with Hus n Yan...went home with radhia.. here comes the end of the day tt breaks me.. Saw her with her guy at busstop walking..she didnt see me...cuz i was behind her.. i dunno y..my leg actually brings me to her opposite block..to see her one last tyme... Memories flashing back in my mind..i almost burst into tears..but i juz cant cry.. my heart wans me to be strong... suddenly..Bro md nor,bro imran,bro raimi,bro ramlan,bro rock,sis clar,sis zura,sis wana,lil sis ikah n lil sis radhia images flashes on my mind..n i cried.. Thanks guys/gals...u have made me strong..bond of friends..I lurve u all...
Nothing much happen today.. hope my grandma is feeling better.. werk as usual..tiring..but enjoyable..with wana n crystal.. Sleep tyme...LOL.. ARghh...Audiohouse having sale...Pay havent come..
<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on12:49 AM
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Saturday, December 13, 2008
7am in the morning..lol..accompany my grandma go eye operation at NUH...worried bout her..but thank god..she's okae..the next day den have to check-up again...otw home..meet raimi..smoke with hym for a while..den i meet imran..we go PW together..play pool..he LOSE...6games to 1..hahakz.. i went to buy my pendant...
nice ryte...the next pendant im gonna buy is the crocodile tooth..hehehekz.. spend tyme inside mcdonalds crew room with bro rock n my lil sis rahdia..oso not to forget sis wana...
sis wana n bro rock
Trying to kill bro rock
Sweet lil sis radhia..
otw home in bus...
And ME..!!...hahakz
Tt's all for today...see ya nxt tyme..Lurve u guys/gals whu is with me today...Muackz...
Today is tiring...from sch...no idea how to burn tyme..so i took bus 31 with raimi till toa payoh..den he go meet his couzy..i took bus 26 straight to bedok..den take 196 to PW...but it's only 2pm...i start work at 5pm!!!..hahakz... work with sis ikah and bro rock..Fun..but tiring.. hahakz...i fall in love with this song..from Barry Manilow..."Can't smile without you"..me n bro rock sing this song at cafe... enjoy listening to the song at my blog..guide u with lyrics.. GTG..too tired liao...need rest...will blog again tmr..Lurve ya guys/gals whu were with me today...Muackzz...!!
You know I can't smile without you I can't smile without you I can't laugh and I can't sing Im finding it hard to do anything You see I feel sad when you're sad I feel glad when you're glad If you only knew what Im going through I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song And brighten my day Who would of believed that you where part of a dream Now it all seems light years away
And now you know I can't smile without you I can't smile without you I can't laugh and I can't sing Im finding it hard to do anything You see I feel sad when your sad I feel glad when you're glad If you only knew what Im going through I just can't smile
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find Well, Im finding it hard leaving your love behind me
And you see I can't smile without you I can't smile without you I can't laugh and I can't sing Im finding it hard to do anything You see I feel glad when you're glad I feel sad when you're sad If you only knew what Im going through I just can't smile without you
<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on1:16 AM
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Sunday, December 7, 2008
Today is quite a day.. my uncle on my father's side passed away yesterday eveing at johor..he and his family, eldest son,wife and 2youngest child on the journey to malacca by car..Shit happens..they met with a accident..my uncle passed away, the rest survived with serious injuries..i feel sad for them..i suppose to work today at 1pm..but decided to stay at my late uncle hse till his body and oso the rest of the family reached home from johor.. so i reached werk at 5pm..tired...finish at 9pm..my late-uncle is a great mucisian..a good frend of ramli sarip..but Tuhan sayang dier..tt's y he's nt here anymore.. got nothing else to blog today..so..im off..see ya tmr...Lurve ya...
Today start of without myself going to sch..took 3flu pills yesterday..and hv a nice sleep..woke up..it's tyme for me to go work..but i didnt go..again same as yesterday..i nvr went out of the house..suddenly home is a calm place for me to stay nowadays..smoke abit too much today...hahkz...my adq syg borrowed from me money..i'm glad to help..waiting for me PES2009 for PC to finish D/L..wahahakz.. downloading oso Star Wars Trilogy..all the 6movies r inside..Fifa online 2 is back..again i beat imran..hehekz..come on imran..muz train lots.. my Bday is coming...15days more...wahahakz..but..it's gonna be abit different tis year..My wishlist is up...either one out of the 3items i wan for my Bday...u can check out..i put a link on the 3items...hahakz..Won't ask much though..guess will be celebrating alone..my family don't celebrate Bday..nt much frends...nah..God..juz giv me a clean bill of health and oso to all my beloved frends... tyme to go..below is the lyrics from the song called Like A Knife..it's my blog song..hear it..and understand it..LOL... Love u guys/gals...
I dream a lot, I know you say I've got to get away. "The world is not yours for the taking" Is all you ever say. I know I'm not the best for you, But promise that you'll stay. Cause if I watch you go, You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away
Cause today, you walked out of my life Cause today, your words felt like a knife I'm not living this life.
Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same. These streets are filled with memories Both perfect and in pain And all I wanna do is love you But I'm the only one to blame.
Cause today, you walked out of my life Cause today, your words felt like a knife I'm not living this life.
But what do I know, if you're leaving All you did was stop the bleeding. But these scars will stay forever, These scars will stay forever And these words they have no meaning If we cannot find the feeling That we held on to together Try your hardest to remember
Stay with me, Or watch me bleed, I need you just to breathe.
Cause today, you walked out of my life (Stay with me, or watch me bleed) Cause today, your words felt like a knife (I need you just to breathe.) I'm not living this life
There's a quote by Washington Irving, "Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart." And also from Christina Georgina Rossetti, "Better by far you should forget and smile than that you should remember and be sad."
These two quotes makes me feel better today at home..i was all along at home today..nvr went to sch,nvr step out of the house..im just afraid..and believe it onot..though i have cigerattes with me..i didnt even smoke for the world day today.. Supposely,after i shld be with crystal and wana to play pool..since crystal cant make it last minute..and im in my world..better off dont go.. the whole day, my left hand..where the last tyme i fractured my finger,it feels pain..i can feel the hatred tt my hand is feeling..n oso the sadness..it's crying..i can hear it..but my tears juz wont come out..i dunno whether its a good thing or a bad thing..I feel better today..i wanna say this out loud...
You're just another chapter in my book titled "Life."
A new chapter needs to begin...i won't just sit and wait..neither will i search..i will just follow the flow of my lyfe.. But still...memories of her..nvr will i forget.. Cheers my friends...Sorie for ignoring u all today...Lurve u all..
<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on8:19 PM
Haiz... im like a biscuit..when there's a new flavor being unleashed..im being discarded.. i cant believe she's moving on tt fast..after all this 1year 2montsh 17days with her..im been living with her lies??..i already expected tt will happen...she found someone at her workplace??..it's the same scenario tt happens the day i met her.. Oh god...r u playing a fool with me??...i've been going through ordeals tt been given by u God..im fighting to survive..heartbreak after another..is this wad u wan me to go through..?Heartache??..everything tt i had..all have been taken away by her on 25oct 2008...my pillar of strength had shattered..my heart broken into pieces.. im slowly picking up the pieces,finding my strength back untill nw..but yet again..u dealt me with another blow...everything back to square one..finding my pieces back again..i lost my strength again..i wanna end this pain of mine im suffering.. im falling again.. im holding on to a branch tt is gonna break soon.. im tired of being mr nice guy..cuz in the end of the day..no one appreciates it..n step over my head..once is enough..twice is too much.. God..one more tyme...i dunno how am i gonna control myself.. i fractured my finger becuz of her...till now..even though its totally cured..i still feel pain n sadness on my hand whenever im going through shits.. i dunno wad to do..im juz lost ryte nw.. Lost in my own world again..
Today kinda sleeping day for me...sorie guys n gals who msg me..i didnt reply..Sleeping lar...for imran n raimi..u made a good choice coming to my hse n knock the door hard..hahakz..Nothing much happen today cuz totally spent my tyme at home with them..Imran SCARED...hahakz..when he watch 4BIA...wish he will have sleepless night tonite..Raimi lost his one side of the shoe..*SADS*..lol.. Juz downloaded DIDO new album...SAFE TRIP HOME.. I give a rating of 4/5...nice to hear if ur going to sleep...nice vocals... Okae...tt's it for today...See ya guys tomoro...Lurve ya...
today's a great day..im in twilight zone..havent sleep..lol..imran n raimi came my hse..we went to sch together..had breakfast..n DAmn..the coffee too sweet for me..went to class..do stupid Phase test..lAme..i dunno how to do..hahakz..but still pass... After sch..straight went to work..tiring..especially nvr slp... hahakz..Work was FUN..and totally..i had FUN doing latte art with bro Rock.. i teach hym abit..and WALLA..he can do already..but still need practice.. Here's 10pictures of latte..Bro Rock n me did..
Finish werk..and finally hear radhia talk..thought she's angry..but maybe she's not.. ask her to watch madagrascar2 with me at laptop..but sadly..she has to go back... in the end..Bro Rock, Sis ikah n me go back together..i bus at tamp..coincidently took same bus with fiza..lol.. tt's all for today folks...see ya tmr..Lurve u guys/gals whu were with me today...
NAME: aAry Shaary
AGE: 22
BIRTH: S'pore
LIKES: Coffee
QUOTE: Its hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of, you just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last….some don’t even start…..
LOVE: My family n whoever r close to me n Im close with
