It's 3.35am++...it's a friday..
i still can't sleep...
10days more before exam..i dun even know whether i can take my exam onot..
Haiz..frankly..i got alot of catch up to do..n i only hav 10days..
+ - the 10days..i onlie left with 7-8days. i need a break from work..it seems i can't..im attach to work..making coffee..seeing my customers enjoy drinking wad i made..
i have to focus nw..Material & proccess Technology..very wide man this subject..
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since i can't sleep..maybe i do some storytelling abit huh..
beside my desktop..there's a green bottle..filled with stars..if i'm not wrong..there's bout 100 stars inside..it was meant for her(juni)..each stars represent each day..but i didn't fill up to the top untill nw...i didn't even bother to throw it away ever since we broke off..
y?..because my love is inside the bottle itself..each star oso represent my love,my effort,my willingness,my sacrifice,my commitment and lastly..my heart..
love,commitment,sacrifice..all of this are vital when loving someone..
if there's no love..commitment n sacrifice isn't needed..to have commitment..there must be love n sacrifice to keep the tie or commitment strong..Sacrifice..when there's no time..both e guy n e gerl have to sacrifice to make time for one another to keep the love n commitment strong..
but when all of it are not there..then love is juz like a one night stand.
I believe in true love. but i hv not yet understand true love. i can't see true love coz i hv not experience it. The Greatest Thing You Ever Learn in this world is to Love Someone Truly. Really, i truly love her(juni)..but it didn't last long than what i've expected. For me, The Most Thing i ever learn all my whole 20years living is Hurt,Broken....but what really makes me proud is..Appreciation n Loving..
Appreciation...i will always appreciate wad people had done for me..will always hv my blessing..but sometimes..some people dun hv this basic fundamental thingy in their life..that is to appreciate love..instead..they take advantage of it..these kind of people..i will hate them to the core..but i will not..it's their life..
Loving...love is a beautiful thingy..when i'm in love..i feel like i'm in the middle of grassland,the air is clear,the blue sky is crystal clear..enjoying every moment.
but when love becomes ugly,bad..where am i?..i feel like i'm in an abandoned forest where tress withers..dead leaves n flowers..all dark..thunderstorms...
i hv been there..n i dun wanna step into tt again..
i'm now loving myself..i'm loving my frends.no doubt bout it..it's called divided love for frends..for me..i won't divide my love for frends evenly..i divided my love more to 5-6 frends whom i reallie love..the rest r all evenly love by me..
but wad i miss is..giving my undivided love to someone i truly love..tt undivided love is different than divided love..my undivided love is placed deep inside my heart..waiting for someone special to bring tt love out..but i do miss giving my undivided love..who will that someone special be?..onlie God knows..
Panjang pe ku tulis..hahakz..it's e end of my story telling..hmm..it's 4.15am..2more hours before school..hahakz..
Cheers all...Good morning..^^
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on3:31 AM
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I'm sick..!!!...lol...but i'm happy..^^
(eat finish almost 2litre of ice cream)
Real madrid vs Liverpool..liverpool won..a header from benayoun on the 82th minute..
worth watching...lol..
glad 25th feb pass by in a manner that im not sad n crying all alone..
in fact i was happy...
today is 26th feb...im confident from now on...i wunt shed a tear for the one who left me high n dry 4months ago..
unless im unlucky enough huh..
but wadever it is...im confident..
lurve ya all...cheers..^^
my nose irritates me at the moment..lol
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on9:10 PM
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no more secret huh...
told her already...
actually she noes already..hus tell her..
she's not suprised..i myself nt suprised..^^
hahakz..nice..
so..that's it den..^^
nothing else to keep..
What happen next..is not to keep any secret lor..
hahakz...
Cheers fiza..^^
cheers Hus...^^
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on10:45 PM
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Memories flashes back when i saw 2pics at facebook juz nw..
nice huh..?..silently slicing my heart open once again..
i miss giving my undivided love to whom i love..which is no one currently..
it's juz sux at times when memories flashes back..i totally went quiet.
my love lyfe,hahkz...the word "love"...tell me..wad's true love..?
i'm juz tired to look for love..loving myself at the moment..
but not really loving my lyfe..yeah..
See ya..sorie for nt blogging for a few days...
*cheers*..love ya all who were with me today..
missing..wanting..
looking for a girl with a broken smile..
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on10:57 PM
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Yesterday night was great..
though plan nvr go as plan..cuz fiza fall sick..
we went ahead with a new plan...chill around at clark quay.
myself,hus,zuzy n munawar..
drink(coffee) our hearts out till 3am...
thanks zuzy for telling me n hus and make us understand..
to fiza..myself n hus will be by ur side while u fight for ur own happiness.
we will be here to hear every thoughts of u...to pull u up when u fall..
we're sorry that we didn't really understand. n nw we fully n truly understand,
we will be there by ur side while u fight for ur own happiness..
only one thing..stop lying to either one of us...juz tell us wad u wan..there's no need to lie anymore..we will listen to wad u wan..no more lies please fiza..??..
Love ya all who were with me yesterday..
to hus..hahakz...we enjoyed it..u enjoyed it don't u...hehehkz...
Cheer all..
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on9:56 PM
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Here i am now blogging at airport terminal 3..
38hours..i still haven't sleep..can't sleep..been thinking lots..
also stress bout sch..assignments to finish..final year presentation at 2pm..lol
Hey,...i been listening to a song from David Archuleta. the title of the song is To be with you.. it's a nice smooth short song. meaningful lyrics..i have actually fallen for this song..here's the lyrics.
I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall
I keep holding out for what I don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you
So here I am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you
Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way
Oh, to be with you
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you
Just to be with you, yeah
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while listening to this song, my mind wander around yet again..again i miss some stuffs in my lyfe yet again. sometimes i wonder, what is true love?..does god answer every single prayer?..i prayed for my beloved good/close frends to have a great life ahead, may they find true love, even if i have to sacrifice my search for true love to pray that they may find true love. but i feel that god isn't answering to my prayers. though i lost my love, thought it will help answer my prayers, but..look what happen to hus,fiza,zuzy..?..when will they find their true love..?..
when will i find my true love..?..time shall tell..
yeah, this song "to be with you", really touch my heart..lol..
i would recommend u guys/gals to listen to this song,try to understand the meaning of this song.
*cheers*..lurve ya all..
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on4:42 AM
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Boring..!!!...need some excitement..it has always been tired at work..stress at sch..
damn..i wish sch ends earlier..have to wait till 10march..den im free from sch..
await for NS...while awaiting..i wanna enjoy ferst with my beloved frends..i wanna make memories..dun hv much frends though..all at parkway parade..lol..
I'm blogging straight after i wake up..zzz..going sch at 10am...aiya..
Stress up with project...
Pay coming tonite..!!!...GST package..!!!! on march 1...wahahahakz...
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on9:14 AM
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Feeling tiring n happy...but at the same tyme..feeling sad n lonely..
yet again...my mind hv been wandering around..
misses the same stuffs again..
*to love n to be loved..
*to hug n be hugged..
*miss gving my undivided love to the one i love..
*wanting to give my undivided love to someone special..
heart alone..hahkz..
i feel glad to be back with hus n fiza..juz like old tymes...
but i dunno whether things can be the same juz like old tymes..
but i'm juz glad..im glad i'm smiling happily again..but deep down..loneliness strikes me..i noe it oso happens to hus n fiza too..
i will be there for u both..no matter wad...i'm glad to have both hus n fiza...
but still...as i written on top...i misses all that stuffs..
Lurve ya both...lurve ya all my beloved frends n colleagues..
*cheers..*
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on2:52 AM
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Story telling tyme..kekeke
Myself,fiza,hus,wana,maryam,reza,zura,ahmad...all went to batam on 6th Feb..
Reza arrive first at tanah merah fery terminal..den followed by maryam,zura,wana n ahmad..
all 5 of them went to have breakfast at killiney while waiting for me,hus n fiza..hahakz..latecomers..
All present..so we board the ferry lar...say goodbye to singapore..hahakz..
pictures at boat..lol..ugly man...
while waiting..we decided to chill on top of the ferry n smoke there lor..
okae...we have reached nongsapura port...check out the view..
To be continued..^^
<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on12:34 AM
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these are a few pictures we took at batam..some i edit..^^
i miss my smile on the 2nd pic...it's been a while i smile that way..i love tt smile..hahkz..^^
these are memories that will be with me till my dying days..Lurve ya guys n gals..
we really have fun at batam...3days 2nights..i hope tyme can pass slowly so we could enjoy more..
i will update more photos soon...when i have the time..
looking forward to the next trip..BANGKOK..!!!..hahakz...
btw...click on the pics if u wan a full view..*cheers*
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on1:37 AM
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Pictures of batam will be ready soon...
no tyme ar to edit...
juz edit a few today..
didnt go sch for 3days straight..die..scared kena De-bar..
will update pics a.s.a.p..
*cheers*
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on2:56 AM
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yo..hihihi
Back from holidays..a great 3days 2nights holiday...
reach singapore ard 5.30-6pm on 8th feb...
tired of course..lol..
will updates pics soon...
so...will blog soon again when im free..(kene edit the pics ar..n choose the best 50pics..imagine..1Gb of pictures..lol..
*cheers*
to fiza..when there's a will...there's always a way...
lurve ya all..^^
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on3:13 AM
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hihihi...
6th feb..im goin for 3days 2night trip..
gonna enjoy it...
again i miss giving my undivided love to someone i love..which is currently no one..LOL
wont be blogging for 3days...my laptop will be in jun's possession..
went to kak saniah house juz nw..meet her husband..learn some stuffs bout fishing..
lots of things i need to learn..good to hv hym to guide me..
maybe i shld make tyme to go fishing with hym..so i will learn more..
later meeting jun..to pass this lappy to her..
she better take care of my lappy...or else..!!..wakakaka.
okae...see ya all on monday...*cheers*
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on11:29 PM
3rd Feb..
Tiring day...during sports & wellness..
sit up,pull up,2.4km run n sit up again..
den from sch..bussed to bedok..from there..walk to siglap centre with crystal..planning to walk till parkway..but then..crystal cannot tahan..so we bussed to parkway..start work at start..damn shagged..n guess wad happen..
i totally lose my temper with a trainee whom have been training in cafe for 3months but still doesnt understand anything...she did something terribly wrong which could cause contamination...i punch POS machine(a screen to take customer order)...the POS machine screen breaks..WOW..!!!..LOL..haiz...i totally hv no more patience on her anymore..stay at parkway till 2plus to talk to my restaurant manager..she say this matter wont be easily resolved..she have refer this to the higher authority..so i have to be prepared...
to fiza n yana..thanks for accompanying me till 2plus..appreciate it lots gerls..
4th Feb..
didnt went to sch..cant wake up...body n muscles aching all over..
at 3.45pm..meet yana at Comfort driving center...we both enroll motorcycle license..i oso apply private testee for car..
den meet zura n bf..went to beach road..at last..i bought my black shoe for werk...and been force to buy slipper as zura n yana saw my slipper bout to break/torn..
tt slipper had been with me for almost 3years..i love tt slipper..cost me $40..but i hv to say goodbye..lol..
den go buy my fishing stuffs coz the next day..meeting kak saniah husband..to learn more bout fishing...
den me n yana walk to bugis junction..while zura n bf motorcycle there..
we watch Love Matters at Shaw bugis..quite funny the story..the ending part..i cried quietly..cuz it's sad..luckily they didnt see..lol..n it's DAMN cold in the cinema..
after tt..went to nike store..yana bought a top n i bought a windbreaker...hehekz..got 40% off..den we went eat at chicken rice store..hehkz..
zura n bf motorcycle to parkway..while me n yana cabbed there..we waited for a cab for an hour..!!!damn...
reach parkway..we play pool..hahkz..
in the end..we went home..cabbed home of course..
haiz..i over budget liao..sads...in one day..$500 gone..
so i have to postpone my account opening till my nxt pay comes..sads..
okae..going to watch everton vs liverpool..
see ya.. lurve ya all who were with me today..^^..cheers..
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on2:46 AM
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Decision has been made....
i will apply my professional barista course when i finish my NS..
tt will be on year 2011..
Reason is...if i apply n go for the course this year,when i go Ns..i'll be rusty by the time i finish NS..coz making coffee,being a barista is all bout practice..2years in NS without practicing my coffee making...the cert will be useless to me..besides..i don't even my own espresso machine..LOL..
it's an expensive goal/hobby..
i don't like to have second thoughts..tt's y i made this decision..
to kak Hani..Thanks once again for ur advice n opinion. appreciate it lots..
nw i need to do some saving plan for myself..
opening up another account..STRICTLY NO ATM CARD FOR THAT ACCOUNT..!!
only bankbook..i will open up another account after my 3days trip out of Singapore..
i will need to save up at least 4500dollars for these 2years...
bless me my friends..pray hard for me tt i can do it..
this is one of my goals..i shall be discipline to achieve my goals..
Cheers guys/gals..
Btw..it's 4.30am in the morning..n Damn..!!!!....i can't sleep..severe headaches..!!!
wad's wrong with me nowadays..??!!...i totally can't sleep...am i having insomnia?..
Problem tt needs to be solve..CUT DOWN on COFFEE..!!!!...haiz..
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<$BlogItemAuthor>lived on12:51 AM
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