Appreciation

2010-10-24T22:44:00.001+08:00

boo hoo..

Huuu

2010-10-20T01:13:00.001+08:00

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess, yes it is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, Here we are
Here we are

We're still here
What a beautiful mess, this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is "Yes"

Through, timeless words and priceless pictures We'll fly like birds not of this earth

And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together

And we, tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But its nice today. Oh the way it was so worth it.

Abit hurt

2010-10-18T02:51:00.003+08:00

I felt abit hurt for the first time after years..hurt by words not said but wrote..
Loneliness..I can't fulfil it..not to let her feel lonely..cuz she remember hw she don't felt lonely when she was with him..
I can't fulfil it..I shall not blame on work..though it eaten 3/4 of my day...hw tired i am..calling her is a priority still..even for a few mins..
But she still felt lonely...maybe time shall do the talking...I just keep doing wad I do as myself...in private or work life...

I wonder

2010-10-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

The days when I feel tt I can love n be love by someone...it's great to hv tt days..
But can it last..??..nothing lasts forever..a common quote used by ppl..
I don't really care..I let nature take it's own course,.
If things r nt gonna be good..although it breaks me..but a part of me will feel glad that I'm able feel love again n hv someone to love me....
So yarh..flow of my lyfe..no big waves nor small waves..I want it calm..
Cheers.. :)

revival

2010-10-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

change my blogskin...hmm...long time nvr done all...so blur..

new love

2010-10-06T02:08:00.001+08:00

yo.....
aary in the house..only for a while je...
all my blogging of miss being loved, to love, hugged, to be hugged, give my undivided love to someone...found that person...
thanks to god i guess...
see ya..

2009-08-17T09:49:00.002+08:00

hie...wah...it's been a while...since i update my blog...
okae..ppl...my frend n her frends has open up a blog..
http://www.sweet-delicious-treats.blogspot.com/

there's oso a link on my blog too...juz on the right hand side...
they sells brownies,cakes and cheesecakes...delicious..
tt's y it's called sweet delicious treats..!!
well..they doing cupcakes too recently...ice cream cupcakes...looks nice..
i have not yet try one..but soon will try...
so ppl who is reading this dead blog of mine..do support them...
to the malays...selamat berpuasa soon...

2009-06-08T02:30:00.002+08:00

hie..i guess it's been quite a while since i blog AGain..
the reason i blog today..hmm..i fall sick...5 days nw i'm sick..
yeah...i got a bad acne...damn man...with tt..i dun feel like werking..or face anyone until the acne is gone..
yeah..17june..club...my acne not gone..i wont go..yeah..i hate the looks of people looking at me when i have tt acne...

2009-04-29T00:56:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since i blog..!!!!WTH...
Busy with werk actually...
guess wad...8th sept..i'm going NS...Home Team...here i come...
Lucky me to get police once again..hahkz..
i'll try blog more often...see ya

2009-04-06T01:43:00.002+08:00

i dunno whether to call this a quote or a poem..
but it's a nice one..

Love is a strange and beautiful thing,
It spans time and space, distance is no object to love.
You will wait forever for the one you love,
Travel wherever you need to be with them.
When you are in the arms of the one you love,
That love can make a moment last a lifetime,
Yet make a lifetime seem no more than a moment.
When love is distant it grows strong,
When it returns it flowers.
People crave it, strive for it, fight for it, and die for it,
And when they find it, they know they are complete.
For in the arms of the one we love is wholeness,
Belief, completeness, passion, and security.
The one we love is someone for whom we would do anything,
And never ask for anything in return.
It produces a love of all that person is and will ever be,
Regardless of what that may mean to me.
Love knows that when you are away,
That you are still loved, cherished, thought after, and missed
By the one you love,
And they know that you love them back.
That is Love.

written by Nicolas Blackmore ...

Well..nothing much going on sunday..
too tired..
nothing much to blog..
feel dissapointed..haiz..
i'm kinda lost..
i need to plan wad to do..

2009-04-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

Days of our lives..
my exam result was poor...
my poly application was unsuccessful...
going to be broke soon..
gonna keep working morning shift for a week..LOL...challenging...cannot late more than 30mins..
getting more tiring cuz BK,KFC,LJS n Starbucks at Parkway Parade..
Mcdonalds to suffer...LOTs of customers...
Wonder wad's wrong with fiza..she shed tears..a minute or two..
fiza..if u wan sunflower..no problem..can get for u..
but wad happen??..u okae..??..hmm...
wonder wad happen to jun n her bf..??...it seems that time is tearing them apart..
I'm feeling quite lonely aT times...haiz...
Days of our lives...Cheers

2009-04-01T02:43:00.002+08:00

1st April..april fool..
not for me..
the month of march had passed..a new month ahead..
my abang coming back at 4th april..kinda miss his presence at time when im at home..though we don't really talk much..
that's gonna be a good start of the month of april..
hmm..been fooled by fiza...cuz it's april fool..
pretended to be cut by a knife while cutting an apple..
so naive huh both myself n hus..to believe in her..thought it was really serious..
been lastly..she msg through fone..n say.."we been punked.."!..!!!!
myself n hus was damn pissed..hahakz..
hahakz...thanks fiza...Syg ko sgt2..hahakz..
not a good start of the month..being punked..hahakz..
well...i juz hope it's gonna be a great month of april..

2009-03-31T01:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah..
i guess it's true wad ppl say..
once love ain't there...it ain't gonna be blooming for me..
my latte art..lately..i can't anymore do my lovely rosetta..
something is wrong somewhere..n i know it's not my technique..
it's just me..
y can i do a beautiful yet elegant rosetta when i was still with her..?
cuz i feel loved..
y now..i can't do that anymore..?
coz i dun feel anything...
it's not bout appreciation or passion or anything..
u can ask me bout coffee,how to do latte art..i will definitely tell n teach u..cuz it's my passion..i'm happy to tell n teach..
but when it comes to me doing latte art...
it's juz not happening...
i'll keep on trying..cuz i noe..somewhere or somehow..it will bloom for me again..making me happy..like how love used to make me happy..

2009-03-30T02:39:00.001+08:00

Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can arrive just like the springtime
And melt away like morning frost

You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share

Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up too easily
It will tear your love apart

Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might

Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive

Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare

Written by Connie Thomas Lugo.

It's a nice poem actually..
it's true u know..
read n understand this..
be back to blog later

2009-03-29T01:32:00.002+08:00

hey...
tired working today..
fun..but at times..i'm bored..
on the way back home..i was wondering..
if i have only one wish that will definitely come true....what will i wish for..??
well...i wish for all my beloved ones to have a happy life ahead..That's my wish if it will definitely come true...yeah...

i have one quote for todAy..

"The past cannot be changed,
the future is still in your power."

Cheers guys/gals....

2009-03-28T01:16:00.002+08:00

5th month im single..LOL
moving on....wants to enjoy my life before i go NS...which is i dunno when i'll go in..
Very sick right nw...having slight asthma..bad cough..can't breathe normally..
no one beside me right nw..at times...i miss some stuffs...yeah...the same as wad i wrote on my previous posts...
but wad to do..i don't need someone perfect...no one is perfect..i juz need someone nice n good..

as this quote says..
"Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind.."

i want someone who can feel my presence...feel n see with her heart..n can understand wad my heart wans to say...my kind heart will never stop loving...

LOL...that's all i have to say for today...expressing myself..^^

2009-03-23T02:40:00.001+08:00

Standing by,
All the way.
Here to help you through your day.

Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.

Catching your tears,
When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.

Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
Always here...

2009-03-21T04:55:00.002+08:00

"Knowing her is one of the best days of my life;
Leaving me is the worst days of my life;
Loving her is one of the beautiful things in my life;
Hating her is the hardest in my life;
Regrets,never occurs to me when she leaves me;
Hatred,never occurs me when she leaves me;
Uncounted tears,have i occurred till now;
Missing,giving out undivided love to someone special;
Someone special,only god knows..."

2009-03-21T00:25:00.002+08:00

Kinda happy today...tired..but overall..it's a good day..
got my lappy charger back..wee..!!..can start d/loading back..
but dunno why..when i ryte in front of my lappy nw..i feel kinda bored..lol..
dunno wad to do...*sads*...
nvm..
i want to be wad i was the last tyme..not wad i am nw..
hmm...
Cheers..^^

2009-03-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

18th march was good/great..
i went to book my FTT..n shockingly..i onlie need to wait for a month to take my test..hahakz..it's on the 22nd april...Besh kape..hahkz..
den went to meet hus at ubi..together we went to our next destination, Jurong..!!!
Far sia..it's been awhile since myself n hus went to west area..hahakz..
reason for going jurong was to go to acer's service centre...i need to sent fiza charger for repairs...myself n hus reach there..waited for almost 2hous for my queue number to be called...
after that..met jun,isyah n fiza at jurong mrt..
together we trained to dhoby ghaut..hv early dinner at long john before we watch movie at the cathay..
we went to watch Race To The Witch Mountain..good story..i will give a 4 out of 5 star rating..i didnt concentrate on the movie..hahkz..my mind was elsewhere..
after tt...isyah went off with her bf..
myself,fiza,hus n jun walk to somerset as jun needs to take something..den we chill opposite Heeren...talk there talk here..
den jun n fiza went home..
myself n hus decided to chill at clarke quay..
hus was crazy bout wanting to go to The Arena..but shockingly..the managers there say strictly for 25years n above..WTF...hahakz...
den we try Rebel Boutique club..hmm...nice club...damn..i cant tahan thier bass boost..keep pumping my heart out..
myself n hus dance all night...we got our own dancefloor to ourself..hahakz..damn tiring...after that..from clarke quay..we walk to bugis..had our breakfast at 5am...hahakz..n it rains...
Enjoyable night for hus n myself..but slowly..each of us realize..we looked back..
this is not us..chilling until late night..we hv been too frequently chilling out till very late at night..we did some wrong Stuffs..
at times..we regret..yeah..but wad's done is done..there's no turning back..all we need to do is just follow the flow of lyfe..but not always follow..we can get lost at times..
Loneliness occurs...shit happens...hahkz..

tt's all..
cheers all..^^

2009-03-17T18:55:00.002+08:00

HiHi...
suddenly i feel like telling wad is love..
does anybody noe what is LOVE??

What is love? It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. Centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love. But no one can give the proper definition of love.
Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life. Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it. It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true.
Love can occur between two or more individuals. It bonds them and connects them in a unified link of trust, intimacy and interdependence. It enhances the relationship and comforts the soul.
Love should be experienced and not just felt. The depth of love can not be measured.
love can be of different varieties. Romantic love is a deep, intense and unending. It shared on a very intimate and interpersonal and sexual relationship.
The term Platonic love, familial love and religious love are also matter of great affection. It is more of desire, preference and feelings.
The meaning of love will change with each different relationship and depends more on its concept of depth, versatility, and complexity. But at times the very existence of love is questioned. Some say it is false and meaningless. It says that it never exist, because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationship.

Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection..

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
William Shakespeare.

All these is from www.love-sessions.com

Basically, this explains the definitions of love...it might be correct..it might be wrong..
i oso dun even noe the real meaning of love..
do u all noe..??..care to share..?

2009-03-15T02:50:00.003+08:00

here i am blogging at 3am..can't sleep..werkind at 9am later
Starting to wander around more than i did the last tyme when i broke up with her..
tt's y i say 'Wanderer is back'..
Basically..i got nothing to blog...
Suddenly..i feel that i need to be wary with lyfe nw..
coz looks can be deceiving..Looks alone can destroy e word 'Love'
Looks,glamour,popular..tt's wad most girls/women wants in their boyfriends/boyfriends to be..
is tt important..??..
i'm very glad tt i dun hv the looks,the glamour..n definitely..im not popular..
i'm happy with wad i am,who i am n the way i am..
a weird, happy go lucky, coffee maniac guy who juz love being himself,wandering around with his mp3..Low profile..i usually show my real self to ppl whom i trust..
those who noes me...u shld noe my style..

Tt's all i can blog..nothing else already...sleepy..but cannot sleep..
Cheers guys/gals...

2009-03-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

HiHi...

To Fiza,..Please take care of the lily(flower)..
Okae...been days i blog..today nothing much...didnt turn up for work..lol
not feeling good..down n out...
quite happy with lyfe these days...tiring...
it's tyme to occupy myself with work work work...
so i wun think much...

Tt's all..
Cheers all

2009-03-10T11:58:00.003+08:00

20december...
wad bout 20december babies..i juz found out from facebook..

"Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical"...

2300hours...
im at airport..somehow rather i'm feeling so restless.i feel moody..without any reason. but im happy..im feeling happy..but at the same tyme, im restless..
im wondering..again me n my wondering..

"The greatest thing u will ever learn in this world is to love and be loved"
remember that people..cheers guys/gals..
love ya all..

2009-03-08T23:44:00.003+08:00

8th March...
what a night...
Totally shagged..
a day that i wont forget...
Thanks Fiza my lady..
Thanks Hus my bro..
Thanks Jun my sis..
Thanks Anba for coming all the way down from malaysia...
Dance all night...
oso nvr to forget..i've been slapped by fiza my lady 5times..!!!
goodness...painful...but i dun mind...
Maybe shld hv another night..to dance all night..
cheers guys n gals...
i love you(fiza,hus,jun)

2009-03-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

tiring day on friday 6th march..
happy Bday to Zuzy...!!!..^^
Test fail..conferm...exam 4more days..
ard 2pm..reach parkway with imran..
i went to meet fiza..imran chill at mcCafe..
fiza2...u spendthrift tau...she bought a pair of nice sandals n a b-e-a-utiful bag.
den went to diva shop..she bought a necklace..hahakz..cost $21..lol..
went to eat at banquet..thanks for the treat my lady..^^..though i didnt finish the meal..but it's nice..den she went back to work..
i went to meet imran at cafe..we study together..help him on his applied mechanics(maths)..my favourite..time fly pass..accompany to busstop...den im back to pw..dunno wad to do..i went to trim my hair..den back at mccafe..dunno wad to do..help out abit when customer in..i went off from pw ard 10.15pm...da terlajak..supposed to drop at ubi...but i slept..woke up..im at tampines..so i bussed 969 from there..Tired..later work at 8am..
time to sleep..nytez..
Thanks for the treat fiza my lady..^^..hahahakz..da tkde keje panggil 'my lady'..
lurve ya all who were with me today...Cheers..^^

2009-03-04T05:01:00.003+08:00

It's a good day on tuesday..
early morning postman bang my door...deliver my mp3 n zura bday present..
wee..alas..got myself a nice cheap mp3 from creative..den continue sleeping till fiza called me n disturbed my aching sleep..lol..ask me to come early to pw to company me eat..hahakz..n yeah..i agreed..my face ar wanna come early to work..no WAY..but..datang jugak..reach pw at 4.15pm..but start work at 6pm..cantik pe...very hard to see me reach pw early..fiza nye pasal..but it's okae..hahakz..after tt fiza went back to work..i was bored tt tyme while waiting to start werk..i got a call from imran..n nice..he's at pw too..hahakz..meet hym..went to smoke..we walk2 at pw...thought of going to borders n see imran's dream gerl..den again..bad luck..she's not working..hahakz..
6pm..i start work...hahakz...hus regret calling me...force hym to come down pw n chill till pay comes...tyme flies slowly..
it's 11pm..pay comes..dissapointing really..i onlie werk 31hours from 16-28feb..pay come little...
hehekz..myself n hus force fiza to go makan at simpang bedok..hehekz...ikot jugak..hahakz..
as usual...we joke around...Fiza..stop calling myself n hus gay partners..we're not..we're straight..hahakz..Hus..rumours bout u n maisarah..wah..wad u do sey..i dump u ar..be fiza part-tyme bf..u be my gay partner..hahakz..dun let zuzy hear bout rumors bout u n maisarah...ade nanti kene piat telinge..hahahakz...
tt's all for today guys n gals..
Lurve ya fiza n hus..
(PS: whoever go out with me..hahakz..pity them..cuz i love to walk..hahakz..)

2009-03-02T02:44:00.002+08:00

Hola...
Sunday...the laziest day...first day of the month of March..
Feels like making my life to a beautiful mess..who wans to join me??
together we make a mess..but make it a beautiful mess..
nothing much happens on sunday...raining heavily..i'm soaking wet..but fun..
how long nvr play in the rain..
but falling sick soon...im freezing at home...
(bukan tk tau mandi lepas kene hujan..hehekz..^^)
7th march coming..lol..besh kape..
expecting 2nd or 3rd march for my mp3 to arrive..
alas..suffering like hell...without music accompanying me when im alone..feel so sad..
tired tired pon..i still can wonder around..
missing some stuffs that my heart longing to give..hahakz...
but wad to do..sorie heart..there is still no one tt we can give our undivided love to..onlie divided love among frends whom i love
Cheers gals n guys..

2009-03-01T04:17:00.001+08:00

Thrusday Happy,Friday Hyper and Saturday Sucker..
lol...
wad's sunday??...

2009-02-27T03:31:00.002+08:00

It's 3.35am++...it's a friday..
i still can't sleep...
10days more before exam..i dun even know whether i can take my exam onot..
Haiz..frankly..i got alot of catch up to do..n i only hav 10days..
+ - the 10days..i onlie left with 7-8days. i need a break from work..it seems i can't..im attach to work..making coffee..seeing my customers enjoy drinking wad i made..
i have to focus nw..Material & proccess Technology..very wide man this subject..
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since i can't sleep..maybe i do some storytelling abit huh..

beside my desktop..there's a green bottle..filled with stars..if i'm not wrong..there's bout 100 stars inside..it was meant for her(juni)..each stars represent each day..but i didn't fill up to the top untill nw...i didn't even bother to throw it away ever since we broke off..
y?..because my love is inside the bottle itself..each star oso represent my love,my effort,my willingness,my sacrifice,my commitment and lastly..my heart..
love,commitment,sacrifice..all of this are vital when loving someone..
if there's no love..commitment n sacrifice isn't needed..to have commitment..there must be love n sacrifice to keep the tie or commitment strong..Sacrifice..when there's no time..both e guy n e gerl have to sacrifice to make time for one another to keep the love n commitment strong..
but when all of it are not there..then love is juz like a one night stand.

I believe in true love. but i hv not yet understand true love. i can't see true love coz i hv not experience it. The Greatest Thing You Ever Learn in this world is to Love Someone Truly. Really, i truly love her(juni)..but it didn't last long than what i've expected. For me, The Most Thing i ever learn all my whole 20years living is Hurt,Broken....but what really makes me proud is..Appreciation n Loving..
Appreciation...i will always appreciate wad people had done for me..will always hv my blessing..but sometimes..some people dun hv this basic fundamental thingy in their life..that is to appreciate love..instead..they take advantage of it..these kind of people..i will hate them to the core..but i will not..it's their life..
Loving...love is a beautiful thingy..when i'm in love..i feel like i'm in the middle of grassland,the air is clear,the blue sky is crystal clear..enjoying every moment.
but when love becomes ugly,bad..where am i?..i feel like i'm in an abandoned forest where tress withers..dead leaves n flowers..all dark..thunderstorms...
i hv been there..n i dun wanna step into tt again..
i'm now loving myself..i'm loving my frends.no doubt bout it..it's called divided love for frends..for me..i won't divide my love for frends evenly..i divided my love more to 5-6 frends whom i reallie love..the rest r all evenly love by me..
but wad i miss is..giving my undivided love to someone i truly love..tt undivided love is different than divided love..my undivided love is placed deep inside my heart..waiting for someone special to bring tt love out..but i do miss giving my undivided love..who will that someone special be?..onlie God knows..

Panjang pe ku tulis..hahakz..it's e end of my story telling..hmm..it's 4.15am..2more hours before school..hahakz..
Cheers all...Good morning..^^

2009-02-26T21:10:00.002+08:00

I'm sick..!!!...lol...but i'm happy..^^
(eat finish almost 2litre of ice cream)

Real madrid vs Liverpool..liverpool won..a header from benayoun on the 82th minute..
worth watching...lol..

glad 25th feb pass by in a manner that im not sad n crying all alone..
in fact i was happy...
today is 26th feb...im confident from now on...i wunt shed a tear for the one who left me high n dry 4months ago..
unless im unlucky enough huh..
but wadever it is...im confident..
lurve ya all...cheers..^^
my nose irritates me at the moment..lol

2009-02-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

no more secret huh...
told her already...
actually she noes already..hus tell her..
she's not suprised..i myself nt suprised..^^
hahakz..nice..
so..that's it den..^^
nothing else to keep..

What happen next..is not to keep any secret lor..
hahakz...
Cheers fiza..^^
cheers Hus...^^

2009-02-23T22:57:00.003+08:00

Memories flashes back when i saw 2pics at facebook juz nw..
nice huh..?..silently slicing my heart open once again..
i miss giving my undivided love to whom i love..which is no one currently..
it's juz sux at times when memories flashes back..i totally went quiet.
my love lyfe,hahkz...the word "love"...tell me..wad's true love..?
i'm juz tired to look for love..loving myself at the moment..
but not really loving my lyfe..yeah..
See ya..sorie for nt blogging for a few days...
*cheers*..love ya all who were with me today..
missing..wanting..
looking for a girl with a broken smile..

2009-02-19T21:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night was great..
though plan nvr go as plan..cuz fiza fall sick..
we went ahead with a new plan...chill around at clark quay.
myself,hus,zuzy n munawar..
drink(coffee) our hearts out till 3am...
thanks zuzy for telling me n hus and make us understand..
to fiza..myself n hus will be by ur side while u fight for ur own happiness.
we will be here to hear every thoughts of u...to pull u up when u fall..
we're sorry that we didn't really understand. n nw we fully n truly understand,
we will be there by ur side while u fight for ur own happiness..
only one thing..stop lying to either one of us...juz tell us wad u wan..there's no need to lie anymore..we will listen to wad u wan..no more lies please fiza..??..

Love ya all who were with me yesterday..
to hus..hahakz...we enjoyed it..u enjoyed it don't u...hehehkz...
Cheer all..

2009-02-18T04:42:00.002+08:00

Here i am now blogging at airport terminal 3..
38hours..i still haven't sleep..can't sleep..been thinking lots..
also stress bout sch..assignments to finish..final year presentation at 2pm..lol

Hey,...i been listening to a song from David Archuleta. the title of the song is To be with you.. it's a nice smooth short song. meaningful lyrics..i have actually fallen for this song..here's the lyrics.

I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall

I keep holding out for what I don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you

So here I am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do

And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you

Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way

Oh, to be with you
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually

And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you

Just to be with you, yeah
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while listening to this song, my mind wander around yet again..again i miss some stuffs in my lyfe yet again. sometimes i wonder, what is true love?..does god answer every single prayer?..i prayed for my beloved good/close frends to have a great life ahead, may they find true love, even if i have to sacrifice my search for true love to pray that they may find true love. but i feel that god isn't answering to my prayers. though i lost my love, thought it will help answer my prayers, but..look what happen to hus,fiza,zuzy..?..when will they find their true love..?..
when will i find my true love..?..time shall tell..
yeah, this song "to be with you", really touch my heart..lol..
i would recommend u guys/gals to listen to this song,try to understand the meaning of this song.

*cheers*..lurve ya all..

2009-02-17T09:14:00.003+08:00

Boring..!!!...need some excitement..it has always been tired at work..stress at sch..
damn..i wish sch ends earlier..have to wait till 10march..den im free from sch..
await for NS...while awaiting..i wanna enjoy ferst with my beloved frends..i wanna make memories..dun hv much frends though..all at parkway parade..lol..
I'm blogging straight after i wake up..zzz..going sch at 10am...aiya..
Stress up with project...
Pay coming tonite..!!!...GST package..!!!! on march 1...wahahahakz...

2009-02-16T02:52:00.002+08:00

Feeling tiring n happy...but at the same tyme..feeling sad n lonely..
yet again...my mind hv been wandering around..
misses the same stuffs again..
*to love n to be loved..
*to hug n be hugged..
*miss gving my undivided love to the one i love..
*wanting to give my undivided love to someone special..

heart alone..hahkz..
i feel glad to be back with hus n fiza..juz like old tymes...
but i dunno whether things can be the same juz like old tymes..
but i'm juz glad..im glad i'm smiling happily again..but deep down..loneliness strikes me..i noe it oso happens to hus n fiza too..
i will be there for u both..no matter wad...i'm glad to have both hus n fiza...
but still...as i written on top...i misses all that stuffs..

Lurve ya both...lurve ya all my beloved frends n colleagues..
*cheers..*

Batam trip..

2009-02-14T00:34:00.002+08:00

Story telling tyme..kekeke
Myself,fiza,hus,wana,maryam,reza,zura,ahmad...all went to batam on 6th Feb..
Reza arrive first at tanah merah fery terminal..den followed by maryam,zura,wana n ahmad..

all 5 of them went to have breakfast at killiney while waiting for me,hus n fiza..hahakz..latecomers..

All present..so we board the ferry lar...say goodbye to singapore..hahakz..
pictures at boat..lol..ugly man...

while waiting..we decided to chill on top of the ferry n smoke there lor..

okae...we have reached nongsapura port...check out the view..

To be continued..^^

2009-02-13T01:37:00.007+08:00

these are a few pictures we took at batam..some i edit..^^
i miss my smile on the 2nd pic...it's been a while i smile that way..i love tt smile..hahkz..^^
these are memories that will be with me till my dying days..Lurve ya guys n gals..
we really have fun at batam...3days 2nights..i hope tyme can pass slowly so we could enjoy more..
i will update more photos soon...when i have the time..
looking forward to the next trip..BANGKOK..!!!..hahakz...
btw...click on the pics if u wan a full view..*cheers*

2009-02-12T02:56:00.002+08:00

Pictures of batam will be ready soon...
no tyme ar to edit...
juz edit a few today..
didnt go sch for 3days straight..die..scared kena De-bar..
will update pics a.s.a.p..
*cheers*

2009-02-10T03:13:00.002+08:00

yo..hihihi
Back from holidays..a great 3days 2nights holiday...
reach singapore ard 5.30-6pm on 8th feb...
tired of course..lol..
will updates pics soon...
so...will blog soon again when im free..(kene edit the pics ar..n choose the best 50pics..imagine..1Gb of pictures..lol..
*cheers*
to fiza..when there's a will...there's always a way...
lurve ya all..^^

2009-02-05T23:29:00.002+08:00

hihihi...
6th feb..im goin for 3days 2night trip..
gonna enjoy it...
again i miss giving my undivided love to someone i love..which is currently no one..LOL
wont be blogging for 3days...my laptop will be in jun's possession..
went to kak saniah house juz nw..meet her husband..learn some stuffs bout fishing..
lots of things i need to learn..good to hv hym to guide me..
maybe i shld make tyme to go fishing with hym..so i will learn more..
later meeting jun..to pass this lappy to her..
she better take care of my lappy...or else..!!..wakakaka.
okae...see ya all on monday...*cheers*

2009-02-05T02:46:00.002+08:00

3rd Feb..
Tiring day...during sports & wellness..
sit up,pull up,2.4km run n sit up again..
den from sch..bussed to bedok..from there..walk to siglap centre with crystal..planning to walk till parkway..but then..crystal cannot tahan..so we bussed to parkway..start work at start..damn shagged..n guess wad happen..
i totally lose my temper with a trainee whom have been training in cafe for 3months but still doesnt understand anything...she did something terribly wrong which could cause contamination...i punch POS machine(a screen to take customer order)...the POS machine screen breaks..WOW..!!!..LOL..haiz...i totally hv no more patience on her anymore..stay at parkway till 2plus to talk to my restaurant manager..she say this matter wont be easily resolved..she have refer this to the higher authority..so i have to be prepared...
to fiza n yana..thanks for accompanying me till 2plus..appreciate it lots gerls..
4th Feb..
didnt went to sch..cant wake up...body n muscles aching all over..
at 3.45pm..meet yana at Comfort driving center...we both enroll motorcycle license..i oso apply private testee for car..
den meet zura n bf..went to beach road..at last..i bought my black shoe for werk...and been force to buy slipper as zura n yana saw my slipper bout to break/torn..
tt slipper had been with me for almost 3years..i love tt slipper..cost me $40..but i hv to say goodbye..lol..
den go buy my fishing stuffs coz the next day..meeting kak saniah husband..to learn more bout fishing...
den me n yana walk to bugis junction..while zura n bf motorcycle there..
we watch Love Matters at Shaw bugis..quite funny the story..the ending part..i cried quietly..cuz it's sad..luckily they didnt see..lol..n it's DAMN cold in the cinema..
after tt..went to nike store..yana bought a top n i bought a windbreaker...hehekz..got 40% off..den we went eat at chicken rice store..hehkz..
zura n bf motorcycle to parkway..while me n yana cabbed there..we waited for a cab for an hour..!!!damn...
reach parkway..we play pool..hahkz..
in the end..we went home..cabbed home of course..
haiz..i over budget liao..sads...in one day..$500 gone..
so i have to postpone my account opening till my nxt pay comes..sads..
okae..going to watch everton vs liverpool..
see ya.. lurve ya all who were with me today..^^..cheers..

2009-02-02T00:51:00.004+08:00

Decision has been made....
i will apply my professional barista course when i finish my NS..
tt will be on year 2011..
Reason is...if i apply n go for the course this year,when i go Ns..i'll be rusty by the time i finish NS..coz making coffee,being a barista is all bout practice..2years in NS without practicing my coffee making...the cert will be useless to me..besides..i don't even my own espresso machine..LOL..
it's an expensive goal/hobby..
i don't like to have second thoughts..tt's y i made this decision..
to kak Hani..Thanks once again for ur advice n opinion. appreciate it lots..
nw i need to do some saving plan for myself..
opening up another account..STRICTLY NO ATM CARD FOR THAT ACCOUNT..!!
only bankbook..i will open up another account after my 3days trip out of Singapore..
i will need to save up at least 4500dollars for these 2years...
bless me my friends..pray hard for me tt i can do it..
this is one of my goals..i shall be discipline to achieve my goals..
Cheers guys/gals..

Btw..it's 4.30am in the morning..n Damn..!!!!....i can't sleep..severe headaches..!!!
wad's wrong with me nowadays..??!!...i totally can't sleep...am i having insomnia?..
Problem tt needs to be solve..CUT DOWN on COFFEE..!!!!...haiz..

2009-01-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

Sick..!!im sick..!!
flu,cough n fever...wad a day..
if these 3 nvr cured..soon my asthma will come..
need to cut down on smoking...though too tired,smoking is demanded..but have to cut down..
don't have the energy to work just nw...very weak..tmr work at 12noon..need to rest..
btw..special thanks to kak hani..she went to highlander coffee to ask some enquiries bout the barista training course i wish to take..thanks kak hani..
thanks for ur advice...i will think long-term carefully n plan wad to do before applying tt course..
6more days...before our cafe thingy happens...yeah...!!
nytez guys/gals..

2009-01-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

hihi...
these 2days quite shagged for me..my only off day today..
tmr will start will again.,..hahakz...no lyfe..but its okae..nxt friday will the day tt will be enjoyable till sunday..
today we organized cafe meeting..discuss all the important stuffs..to improve our cafe..the month of january..sales has picked up tremendously..we only hv 8staffs in cafe..will still able to cope..but we need some cooperation from staffs at mcdonalds..
bussed back with fiza n zura...zura drop at siglap..myself n fiza drop at her busstop..i bussed 39 home...
tmr sch at 8am...cannot afford to wake up late anymore...class advisor called house tis morning..my mom picked up...8.30am in the morning kena nag by my mom..hahakz..
got to noe exam is on early march..so DIE..!!....miss lots of theory lessons..so..im one my own now to catch up...hahakz..
off to bed...nytez...
Fiza...cheer up gerl...don't broad over ur failure in love..ur strong..we're Sagittarius..if u need me..buzz me..n i be there..
lurve ya all who were with me today...*cheers*

2009-01-28T00:45:00.002+08:00

Totally tired..!!!!
23jan 3-11pm
24jan 3-11pm
25jan 10-6.30am
26jan 10.30-6.30am
27jan 3-11pm...
den later sch at 10.30am..den work at 6 til 11pm..
hectic man lyfe...haiz..
work for my espresso course..chasing my goals..tiring man...

haiz..again..my heart misses stuffs like..
to love
to be loved
to hug someone i love
to be hugged by someone who loves me
a companion in my lyfe..
to give my undivided love to someone special..

i'm kinda lonely..though at work..i hv my best colleagues..
but outside work..i'm juz a lonely guy..wandering around..drinking coffee
i miss the times when im in love..i wanna love again...i juz can't stop thinking bout living each day in loneliness.. :-(

my bed is calling me..will blog again when i have the tyme..
see ya all...*Cheers*

2009-01-25T14:33:00.003+08:00

4th Feb n 14th Feb...anyone wanna go out..??...im bored on tt day...pwease..!!.LOL
okae..Smallville season 8...nw at episode 12...great...hahakz...i waited for episode 11 for almost 2months...n it came out last week..n its the best...juz finish downloading episode 12...watching it nw..^^
haiz...later werking overnyte...10pm..good thing is im nt working alone..hehehkz..got wana..^^...i going sleep back...will wake up at 6pm later...See ya all...

Miss

2009-01-24T03:09:00.002+08:00

i juz miss...
To love
To be loved
Hug
Being Hugged
Giving my undivided love to someone
A companion in my lyfe

it's been 3months..25 oct 2008..i got hurt by someone whom i love so much for 1year 2months n 17days..loving her more than loving myself..
from 25 oct 2008 till nw..i've learn alot..
"How can u love someone,when u don't love yourself.."
..tt helps me move on...nt only tt..my friends at work plays a part on helping me move on...i thank them for tt...lurve them..

24 jan 2009...i decided to say out wad i miss inside me...
Thanks bro rock...for giving me advises..
hahkz..an adviser/counsellor oso do need some advise/counsel..tt's me..
i appreciate it bro rock..

Sleepy day

2009-01-22T00:51:00.004+08:00

hihi...
22nd jan...miss sch again...oh my goodness...wad happen to me..??!!..
slept 4hours onlie..went to werk at 6pm...werk with wana..she sick..aww..
nothing much happen at work..reach home at 12.45am..e next day sch at 8.30am..den work at 1pm..been quite busy with werk all along..didnt have tyme for myself..
anyone wanna go out at valentine's day with me??..hahakz...so early...
on the 4th feb..who wanna go out with me..hahakz..
you're welcome mira...maybe one day we have dinner together...my treat..for your belated bday treat..^^...when u wear tt jacket..take a picture of urself..let me see..surely it suits u perfectly...^^
21st jan...didnt go sch...overslept..!!!hahakz..
went out at 4pm..meet zura n bf at sim lim..buy her laptop screen protector..den went to eat burger king with them n oso mida(zura frend)..
den proceed to far east shopping center..meet fiza,jun n hus...
pity fiza..been played by her bf behind her back...her bf went out with another girl..*sads*..
she dunno wad to do..she's juz lost..we gave her a few of advises...let her think on her own...but advisable...i hv ask her nt to wait for hym till march..no use..im kinda shocked..i met her bf before..looking at hym..i knew deep down my heart..he's a good guy..good enough for fiza..but ppl changed when tyme flies by..he changed...
haiz..wad to do..juz sad when see ppl change for the worse...
i hope i can do something for her..i told her..if she needs someone to talk to n drink with..im here..i gone through enough..n i dun wan friends around me to suffer like me...i wan them to learn from my mistake..i hope i can do tt..hv the power to help ppl..
NW...im at AIrPORT..!!!!!...Overnight there..hahahakz...
*Cheers* ppl...

day end with a smile..

2009-01-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

Helo..
hv nt slept for a day...watch liverpool vs everton at 4am juz nw..went to sch at 7.30am..wahhh..!!hahakz..
finish sch at 11am..no running today...lucky...coz i wont hv energy to run..*sads*
went to airport..had my breakfast n lunch at mccafe with raimi..den we went to tampines..buy my belt from giordano..$9 onlie..den check out mira's jacket..
den i proceed to parkway myself..den eat steamboat at mcdonalds..wahahakz..jojo is the cook..LOL..
den went to esprit to buy mira's present..thanks jojo for the company..thanks to wana..accompany me to find a box for the present n a bag to go along with the present..thanks once again..me n wana go play pool for an hour..teach her abit on pool..no worries wana..im not boring playing pool with u..my pleasure to teach u..^^
den after tt..proceed straight to mira block..meet her to pass her the suprise i have for her...Glad she's happy...it's ur wish to have tt jacket..n i made ur wish come true..it's a pleasure to make somebody wish come true..in fact..i completed one of my resolution's...tt is..to make someone wish come true on the first month of 2009..n mira..ur the lucky baby..^^...Lurve ya lots sis...study hard aite..
seeing u happy getting ur present..makes me happy..it's worth..
remember to keep ur smile of yours as sweet as ever..^^
*cheers* mates..^^..lurve ya all today...

Cheers...

2009-01-19T00:07:00.002+08:00

hihi..
tiring week it have been..
didnt have to tyme to blog..
okae..Friday 16th jan...werk..great..tiring as usual..
Saturday 17th jan...werk..Totally tired..great..werking with crystal..den with wana n zura..
Sunday 18th jan...Happy birthday to Amira..gerl..ur 16 nw..u shld write a reflection of ur lyfe nw..n yeah...wish u success in everything u do...keep tt smile of urs as Sweet as ever..^^...it's been a while i've seen u...hope to see u soon..i still surveying camera for u..but if u already bought a camera..let me noe..i'm waiting for an IT fair..shld be ard march..anyways..happy birthday once againn..^^
werk again..i totally got no energy..werk with crystal..fun..den with zura..fun..but with lilian ard..hahakz..quite funny...lilian sometymes dont really dare to talk to me much..i think becuz i raise my voice at her on friday..maebe she afraid..LOL..den she wanna toaster..teach her many times..still dun get it..toaster spoil later..sales affected..still being patience with her totally slowness of working....
i juz hope 6,7,8th feb will be a successful plan..
Gtg now..tomoro sch n werk..wah...hahakz...
amira..i will msg u to come down pw or sumware once i have to tyme to grab u a present..Cheers people..^^

Sorie

2009-01-15T21:13:00.002+08:00

Hi..
didnt blog for few days...yeah...kinda tired..working 6days straight..
today is my only off day..
Monday 12th jan..didnt went to sch..werk at 6pm..meet kak hani..got me n my lil bro get our belated bday presents...mine is home n away Liverpool jersey...Thanks Abg n Kak hani...my wish come true..hehk..
Tuesday 13th jan...had my run/jogging before i werk at 1pm..was late..came at 3.30pm..
nothing much happen..
Wednesday 14th jan...had my run/jogging...go sch for project..den 6pm werk..before werk..go airport..visit T3 Mccafe..Maisarah n zuzy werking...wah...maisarah do my latte..trying to kill me..its burning hot..LOL...show them abit of latte art..^^reach werk at 7pm..saw cafe nice n clean..Thanks Yong Ming n Wana for helping..i oso help abit..too tired ar...
Today..15th jan..went to sch..tired to run...nothing much happen..myself n raimi met imran at pw...talk to my manager..clar..kinda sad..e carimali espresso machine gonna phase out soon..hope it phase out after i go to NS...
Damn tired today..running nose..slight fever..too windy...zZZzZ...i wonder y for the past weeks..it has been too windy...
GTG...Nytez...wanna rest...

Weak

2009-01-11T23:26:00.003+08:00

hihii..
werk at 9am...wake up at 8am..late..LOL..tired ar..
reach werk at 10am..feeling weak..havent eat breakfast..forgot to take my Berocca..
needed my coffee..so i made myself 2cups of caramel latte..kekeke..
werk was good..all in good mood..lunch..i had grilled chicken bun n an apple..dietary program mah...but damn hungry after few hours..muz persevere..end werk at 6.30pm..
play pool with zura's bf..kekekeke..beat hym badly in race to 6..i win 6games to 2..hehekz..
den ride bike with hym to paya lebar to change notes to coins..i dun like to ride bike..scared yeah..i love speed..but nt with bike..zZzZ...
before going home..smoke n talk with hym...much to talk really..
bussed home..15 n 854..reach home at 11.15..
Tmr sch at 9.30am..!!..arghh...
Man u vs Chelsea....big match..hope i win...
thinking of getting a camera...or getting a camera for a friend whose bday coming up at 18jan...maybe belated bday present..see hw..kinda broke..waiting for bonus at end of jan..hope enough for my espresso course n camera n holiday..lol...
Nytez..!!

Great,pissed,enjoy

2009-01-11T01:02:00.002+08:00

10jan starts off with me waking up at 12.30pm..
my cousins were here...damn noisy..two girls doing homework at my hse..
went off to werk at 2.30pm..start at 4pm..but instead..went for late lunch with maryam at banquet before start work..LOL..
start work 4.30pm..Handover like SHIT...i was totally pissed off..cafe nothing was stock up..lobby atrium totally damn messy..wad kind of handover is this.??!!!
zura,maryam n myself totally not in the mood..5pm-7pm..we cleared everything..lobby,stocking up,cleaning up the mess at cafe..i quarrel with may for few mins..sorie may..i noe ur side down crew but we oso needed help...u all need help..we help..we need help..u all keep quiet..n guess wad..zura went for her break at 9.15pm..guess how long we need to really clear everything up plus serving customers..
yeah..but we enjoyed..all kinda clumsy..blurr..
at 11pm..my shift ends..hv a smoke before i go home...got great news from wana..hahakz..counting down the days to our cafe thingy...hahakz..
later werk at 9.30am..LOL..
need to sleep...nitey nytez..lurve ya all who werk with me today...:):):):):)

Great day..

2009-01-08T23:39:00.003+08:00

today starts with me waking up late again..hahakz..
suppose to go SP open house at 11.30am..in the end..wake up at 11am..hahkz.
went out to meet imran at suntec starbucks ard 12.45pm..went to eat Long John..eat JCo donuts..walk around juz to burn tyme..he pass me FM09..wahahakz..at last.!!
den he bought razer mouse pad..we went separate ways ard 4pm..i went to meet wana at suntec starbucks..den meet zura n may at marina Mcdonalds. They're late..!!..5pm..zZz..hahakz..
went to check out wad movie to watch...we pick Transporter 3 at 7.05pm..
to burn tyme before the movie..we went popeye..they eat their popeye's meal..while i having my 3rd cup of hazelnut latte..this tyme at Robert's coffee..n some popeye's chips n drumlet..
tyme pass by..we were back at the cinema..meet maryam n her bf..oso meet up wid wana's bf...watch movie together...great movie..1hr 30mins..
after tt all of us chilled at marina starbucks n hv coffee...my 4th cup of hazelnut latte..wahahakz...am i crazy or wad..LOL
we chitchat..myself,maryam,zura n wana was kinda feeling angry..shits happen behind our back..nw i'm thinking wad am i suppose to do...wad are we suppose to do..
all i noe..we need to sit down n reallie settle things up to stop all this shits tt happen behind our backs..
10.45pm..we go separate ways..wana with her bf..maryam,her bf n zura..onlie may n i took taxi home..lol..
gonna install my FM09 nw...Overspent today..lol...4cups of hazelnut latte..Long John..Popeye..hahakz..

today's great..7th Jan

2009-01-08T01:28:00.002+08:00

7th jan begins by waking up late for sch...kekeke
class start 10.30..wake up 11.30am..
lil sis crystal called me 6th tyme on my old number ard 11.26am..
sorie i didnt pick up..u called me on the new number..i pick up..
u cried..lil sis crystal..dun cry ky girl..if u need someone who chat,vent ur anger..call me..im always online..same goes with the rest..if u need me..im here 24/7..
reach sch at 2pm..went to do our project...kinda frustrating...hahkz..
knock off at 3.30pm++..went to hv lunch ferst at sch..zZz..i thought Thousand island chicken rice was nice..see so many ppl eat...but when i eat..Sorie to say..not my type..if salads with thousand island sauce..i will love it..hahakz..
went to Changi T3..have a cup of coffee..while waiting for tyme to pass..cuz waiting for Kak Hani to finish werk..need to meet her to pass my abg's tripod..
wow..T3 McCafe got a new girl..started werk a month ago..her name is Maisarah..??..or how shld i spell it..?..i dunno at all..hahakz...nice girl ehk?.hahkz..
receive a msg from Kak Hani tt she finish werk..nice..i juz board bus 36..travelling to parkway..
reach parkway..went to giant to buy some fruits for home..yeah..Dietary program starts on Friday..LOL
den meet Kak Hani at my werkplace..hahkz..treat her caramel latte..which actually taste like Hazelnut latte..my favourite drink in starbucks..hahakz..
we talked..dreams,my studies,goals..talk n talk n talk..n hey..look at the tyme..we been talking for an hour or so..hahakz..funny..tyme pass quite fast today...lol..
bussed home...from Parkway to tampines..den to yishun..
im on a brink of getting broke..hahakz..
damn..i wish i could get the timberland windbreaker..it costs $168..but they slash down the price til $84..arghh..!!!!..if i buy nw..im gonna starve for a week..!!

tt's it then..need to sleep..haiya..need to go to S'pore Poly later on at 10.30am..
Nytez..!!!

when can enjoy my pay?? t_t

2009-01-06T22:50:00.004+08:00

yeah...pay come today...but a quarter of my pay left after settling some of the stuffs..
Bills
Owe
Household stuffs
personal stuffs
vitamins
dietary foods..
Wee...starting dietary foods tomorrow..
a big test for me...lets see whether i can hold on for a week..if success..den try a month..sure do need help from someone who can guide me on wad to eat each day..

I watch moulin rouge twice..n tears flow out...it's a great funny but emotional movie..
the ending part..haiz..burst to tears..
"the greatest thing u'll ever learnt is loved n to be loved"
"Listen to my heart..can u hear it say;
telling me to give u everything"
"Come what may
i will love u;until my dying days"

hahkz..damn emotional am i..hahakz..
few movies/drama tt makes me burst to tears..
Kabhi kushi kabhi gham..
One litre of tears(japan)
a Song to the sun(japan)
Moulin Rouge
Ibu Mertuaku
n one of my favourites.. The Bucket List

Tyme to sleep..nytez...

Great..till the end..lost of mood

2009-01-04T20:53:00.002+08:00

today is great..
but until BC came to our workplace..
do CSVR..gurantee chop..Fail..
den..mood get worsens..nvm..
forgive n forget..words been said..hurtful..
but this is life..i won't keep any hatred at all..
juz be patience..everybody is tired..
yeah..making espresso coffee is my passion..
but nw..werking there is no longer a passion for me..
i still have my passion on espresso coffee kept in my heart..
but i question myself bout my passion of working at my 2nd home(Parkway McCafe)..
and i finally have my answer..it's already answered when i lost my mood..
nw..i work for money..to chase my goals..
n my appreciation to others who help me alot..will nvr be forgotten..
Thanks guys/gals in McCafe Parkway..
u will still see me work together with u all...the same old me working with u all..
but u won't see the passion anymore..the commitment..
Nytez..

Nt a good day to start new year..

2009-01-01T22:33:00.002+08:00

Happy new year everyone..goodbye 2008...welcome 2009...
life shit for 2day...
31dec..werk at 10pm till 7.30am..
1jan..werk at 12noon till 8pm..
e hell...nw juz reach home..onlie slept for an hour..
Damn lots of ppl when i work 10pm shift..
Damn tiring...
my fracture finger tt recovers 3month ago starts aching today..
im feeling pain..Painkillers e onlie way..
got to go sleep nw..
Happy new year once again..^^

8hours more...

2008-12-31T16:06:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey...
8hours more before 2009...
hv u all set ur resolutions for the new year.??
i have 3..

1.Lose weight
2.to fulfil my goals in life which i can afford to fulfil
(To be a certified Barista..succeed in Marine engineering..Open up my own cafe..)
3.a completely new year for all..no more heartbreaks,no more crying,no more suffering..all tt no more..live lyfe to the fullest..cuz lyfe is short..nvr regret anything tt made u smile..n lurve truly..nvr look back to the past..

That's my new year's resolution...
To all my beloved friends,
Happy New Year..Nvr look back on year 2008..

boRed..Sick

2008-12-30T21:27:00.002+08:00

Boredom...tt's wad im suffering today..
as well as diarhorrea...feels better today...
tomoro work graveyard shift..it's eve of New year..n im counting stock..!!!
wad a lyfe...can't celebrate countdown...
im still broke..arghh...pay come at 6th Jan..
im gonna need ciggies tomoro...Definitely..
any ideas ware can i dig for money?...my piggy bank at home empty liao..hahakz..
Darn..i should start making a habit to keep my coins instead of donating it or giving it to ppl...or else my piggy bank will forever be empty...
pay come on 6th jan oso makes no diff..my mindset nw to save $400 by march..
to fulfil one of my goals..tt is to go to Highlander Coffee for their 10hours of barista training.Can u imagine..$400 for 10hours of training..but wad to do..it's one of my goals..n i will hv to fulfil it..
oso when pay comes..i may hv a suprise for bro imran...hahakz..
hmm..January Babies..i wonder whether i shld get something for them..Tag me January Babies..so i will noe who..^^
and oso..Saving up for a 2D1N holiday at bintan..not sure whether it's confirm onot..but i hope it will be confirm soon..cuz not many ppl going..*sobs*
That's all...tyme to continue my boredom night...wish tt the night can pass by alot faster today...LOL..

blog change for new year..^^

2008-12-30T03:29:00.002+08:00

Hey yo...
change my blogskin..kinda plain..but i like it..hahakz..
30dec..3.35am..still havent sleep..hahakz...diarhorrea ar..hahakz..
in n out of the toilet..lol

Sick

2008-12-29T17:30:00.002+08:00

yo...
didnt went werk today...having diarhorrea...sad..
okae..new year is coming..have u all set ur new year resolutions?
i got 3 resolutions...
how bout u guys/gals?...tag me...
i wanna noe..^^

Happy werking..but mind elsewhere

2008-12-29T00:11:00.002+08:00

hey..
<28dec>today's a great day..believe it onot..i came to werk with a smile..i came werk happily..i dunno why...but it just happened..
but i noe..my mind were elsewhere..yeah..
i been having stomach upset for 2days..!!!..damn steamboat..
i been listening to some of Ronan Keating songs these days..
there is this song titled "The Long Goodbye"..check out the chorus..

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye..

interesting...been hearing this song repeatedly today..
yeah..today..somebody reallie irritates me alot..who else other than lil sis crystal..!!!...she's damn talkative today...hahakz..took bus 31 together with her n lil sis radhia..^^
all lil sis radhia could do is juz smile n laugh..hahakz..
sometymes..her smile do make my day better..n she juz did..
same goes with lil sis crystal..hahkz...u both make my day..
one entertain me..the other one juz smile n laugh..
juz brighten up my lonely day...Thanks Ladies..lurve ya..

my mind is still elsewhere tonite..hahkz..
i cant sleep..!!..i do need to start taking sleeping pills again..LOL..
okae..signing out...Lurve u all who were with me today...thanks once again lil sis radhia n crystal.^^...

I need ciggies..!!..hahakz..

Mood: happy,tired,drowsy

2008-12-27T22:21:00.001+08:00

heyheyhey...today is fun,tired,dizzy...hahakz..
no tyme to blog today..
watching Titanic at Star Movies nw...
see ya...^^
Lurve ya all who werk with me today..^^

^^

2008-12-26T22:53:00.004+08:00

Things tt makes my day todae..
*Werk hv been great
*Got e website from lil sis Radhia bout haunted hotel game..??LOL
*Reach home early to watch Liverpool against Bolton
*got Heroes season 1
*Great day

Things tt didnt make my day today..
*Tired
*Dizzy
*Totally broke(money)
*No ciggies
*No one cooks at home...
*Lost the papers i've written bout prices of the cameras mira wans me to check..*sobs*

Lurve u guys/gals who werk with me today...^^

Great..

2008-12-23T23:17:00.003+08:00

things that make my day today<23rd Dec>
*slept from 11am till 7.30pm...
*watch movie Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles III (1993)
*Lil Sis Radhia change Hp number
*watch movie The Wonders (That Thing You Do)
*Finding movie Kickboxer 1,2,3,4,5 to download..

things that not good today<23Dec>..
*Having a bad headache
*Diarrhea
*Lil Sis Radhia still not feeling well..
*Appetite not good..
*Lappy hard drive space getting smaller

LOL...
still figuring how to write a song..
it's like writing a poem..

i stuck with only two verse..
Your smile,you have a sweet smile;
it's like an angel smiling down on me,Yeah
Your eyes,is shining bright on me;
i won't deny that i can't take my eyes off you.

If i could have one wish;
i would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck
and the feel of your heart beating with mine.

so..i don't actually know wad to do...i only got this 2verse..thinking of the stucture of the song..the rhythm of the song..n most importantly..the meaning of this song..
looking at the verse..hmm..
help me can?..hahakz...tell me..how is this 2verse..?..any idea wad to write for the chorus?..wad's e meaning of this song..??..tag me..^^..

mood:tiring,happy..

2008-12-23T00:32:00.002+08:00

22nd DEC..Woke up late tis morning...supposed to werk at 12pm..came at 2pm...worse thing..i took a cab to werk..cost me $18..zzzz..reason cuz our BM is in store..so now...i'm OFFICIALLY BROKE....damn...
work as usual...but today..like blur..kinda mumbling to myself..till customer cant hear wad i asked..
was bout to finish work..suddenly a suprise package came..hahakz..it's Shida n Zizi..hahakz..Helo to them..they drop by pw for a while..glad am i to see them..hahakz..(memories of her flash back again when i saw shida..they look alike..only their skin colour..more worse..when shida wears specs...look EXACTLY alike..)...went home took bus 15..saw them again..hahakz..sit beside them..(again memories flashing back..)..(sorie shida..i better not tell u tt u n her somehow look alike..or else u will feel awkward..)...den stop at tamp..took bus 969..
yeah..im going fishing ard 1am...wish me luck..hahakz..TUESDAY is my only off day..need to rest well too...
GTG...Thanks shida n zizi for dropping by pw..miss u gerls(shida,zizi,mira)...drop by more often...hahakz...

Dark rings...

2008-12-21T23:43:00.002+08:00

Wahahahakz..i got dark rings below my eyes...it means i need to have a 12hour sleep...
but no tyme..hahakz...work is okae today...tiring..but enjoyable...
cant wait to watch Arsenal vs Liverpool...im a fan of liverpool...
nothing much to blog today...so see ya..
lurve u guys/gals whom i miss today...err...who i miss??..hahakz....see ya..

Birthday

2008-12-21T01:49:00.003+08:00

201208....i'm 20..Happy Birthday to me...working during my bday..
got a present from zura,crystal n wana..they all share to buy me a levis tee..Thanks girls..appreciate it much..
kinda tired...i think alot lately...total i pull of almost 5white hairs...oh goodness..i been really thinking alot..thinking bout my future,my lyfe now,planning to open up my very own cafe if i hv the money..(now definitely can't..it's like waiting for money to drop from the sky..)..hahakz...but mostly nw..thinking more bout my lyfe..been going through a rough tyme after breaking up with her..but at least for now..im happy n glad..im still standing up strong...yeah...
but there's this dream tt keeps appearing..a voice..saying to me..
"be careful..someone out there will hurt u..be strong..n stick to ur beliefs..u hv changed..don't look back to the past..just walk straight..love comes and goes..believe in urself..u will start to love again anytime when ur ready.."
e voice..remains mysterious in my dreams..juz a voice..nothing else..
but whoever was tt in my dreams..i would like to thank u..i will noe who's harming me and who's not..so far..no one is hurting me..i've changed..i nvr look back..even though memories of her sometymes appear in my mind..i always believe in myself..nvr i hv any doubts to myself..im ready to loved n be loved..cuz tt's who i am...

yesterday frus...today happy..

2008-12-19T13:51:00.003+08:00

lol..yesterday finally lost my patience to the new beanie named lilian...she's juz totally slow...2030hours i went for dinner...den she got rush in..but onlie 4orders..not alot wad...first costumer came at 2032..she settle the order at 2042...den nxt customer came at 2040..she settle it at 2052...another customer came at 2042..she settle it at 2055...last customer came at 2045...she settle it at 2105..
when i came back from dinner..i already hv customer coming back..asking where's their drinks n cakes..den i blur...
finally angry...i slam things in cafe...den tt lilian went inside mcdonalds...n cried...LOL...arghh...don't talk bout tis...or else more frus i become..
Today...im gonna eat swensen i guess...wana can't tag along..so it's just myself n lil sis radhia..it's eve of my birthday...back from swensens..hah...got company..myself,lil sis radhia,sis may,sis zura and a new girl in mac named suziana..hahkz..nice name though...
we all went to swensens together..it was great..hahkz..although it burns a hole in my pocket..but to see the others happy..i dun mind..lil sis radhia very funny..hahkz..she dunno how to use knife to eat..cute..hahakz..
after tt went to famous amos..bought 820g of cookies..for bro rock,oiling,kak saniah(mak),lil sis ikah n marvin..total spend ard 150..LOL...
Thanks guys/gals for accompany me on eve of my bday..appreciate it lots..
thanks lil sis radhia..for saying it's awesome..hahakz..im most happy to treat u..as long as ur happy n having fun..
once again thank u all...Happy 20th birthday to myself in 2hours tyme...
Lurve u guys/gals who were with me juz nw...*cheers*

Happy..

2008-12-18T00:43:00.003+08:00

Feeling good today..work is okay..lil sis radhia wait for me n bro rock till we finish at 11pm..pity her..lol..5hours++ waiting..so let her use my lappy..
me n wana had a task to do..hahakz..to design n make a pattern using the helping hand paper...
firstly..we decided to do heart-shaped..hahakz..we're not tt artistic..we can't even do proper heart-shaped..shame on us..hahkz..decided to do "M"..Lame ryte..hahakz..
den we came out with another design..a christmas tree...this tyme..SUCCESS..hahakz..who says we dun hv artistic talent..LOL
actually i don't like to draw art...but i appreciate art lots...like to watch,stare,see art..hehekz...
work ends..went back with bro rock n lil sis dhia..i decided to drop tampines..so i can bussed 969 home..along the way to tamp..hahakz..lil sis dhia kinda irritating..hahakz..but too bad lil sis dhia..im a guy full of patience..i can take it..so irritate me more..n i shall disturb u more..hahakz..she laugh n smile lots today..good to see her laugh n smile today..just make my day..hahakz..seeing everyone happy..cuz if u all happy..im oso happy...
tired nw..tmr got plans before proceed to work..
Arghh..tmr work with the slowest ever beanie i ever train...im patient enough to train her..patience is a virtue..hahakz..
okay...bed is calling me...hahakz...Lurve u guys/gals who's with me today...thanks lil sis dhia for waiting...hope u wont get a scolding from ur parents...
bro rock..our secret is between us..i just hope it won't worsen..lol..
Nytez...!!2 more days.!!!..wee..

Weird...

2008-12-16T23:18:00.003+08:00

Kinda sick today..my tears kept flowing out..lame2 can become like kassim selamat..
my feelings is not ryte today..have doubts...wad kind of doubts i oso dunno..but i roughly know wad's going on...but i won't tell it here...it will be awkward if tt person would really read my blog...
remind myself again not to be weak n soft-hearten when it comes to love..
yesh follow the flow of lyfe..but for love..don't always be.."nanti kene pijak kepale lagik"..in english..later been taken advantage again..don't want that to happen..
kinda sleepy...
Btw ladies..u all know who is Tom Welling??...
i feel tt onlie few knows him...
if u ask me, who is the hottest,sexiest,charming guy in hollywood.?
i won't say leonardo dicaprio,brad pitt,jim carrey or even pete wentz....
from my point of view...the person who looks good in every way..in photogragh,acting,model,personal life..it's gonna be Tom Welling..
i'm nt gay or wadsoever..coz i been watching Smallville from Season 1 till now..Season 8..he oso appear in Cheaper by the dozen 1 and 2..and oso the movie "The Fog"..he just looks great...show u a picture or two...

seriously..i can't wait for episode 11 in season 8..it's getting more complicated...
chloe been kidnap by the destroyer whom is actually davis..aww...the love of his life..jimmy..chloe's newly wedded husband is in critical condition..n clark determined to find chloe...tt is wad happen on episode 10..
Louis n Clark..

Last but not least..pictures of smallville...before i sign off...

something wrong with myself..

2008-12-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

day starts with me waking up late for work again...worst still...slept in the bus..waking up to know that i miss my stop..went straight to Suntec city..haiz..
bus 36 damn lots of ppl ard 1730hours..
reach work..didnt talk much.."y ur face so moody?"..someone ask.."y nvr smile?"
LOL...all i know is i don't know how to smile..seriously..i got a problem..i can't smile..but ppl say i hv a nice smile..but look myself in the mirror..only to see my chubby face,kinda fierce...BUT hey..im not fierce..i wonder y some ppl afraid of me..
get to know me..den u know i nt fierce..Duhh..!!
finish work..unexpectedly..i juz buzz off..nvr like sit down n smoke ferst..
i wonder wads wrong with me today..can someone tell me..??...i even reach home early..
Forget it..juz change my blog song..a nice song from maroon 5..called "not falling apart"..here's the lyrics..
miss my frends today..hahkz..weird..

Ooh…

Danced all night, slept all day
Careless with my heart again
Fearless when it comes to playing games

You don’t cry, you don’t care
Afraid to have a love affair
Is that your ghost or are you really there?

Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart

Ooh, oh

Weather on a sunny day
Time slows down; I wish you’d stay
Pass me by in crowded, dark hallways
Mmm

Try my hardest not to scream
I find my heart is growing weak
So leave your reasons on the bathroom sink

Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart

I heard you say you needed me now
What’s the problem I can’t see
You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again
I’m not falling apart

Take what you want
I will be just fine
You will be better off alone at night
Waiting and falling
Constantly calling out your name
Will it ever change?

Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart

I heard you say you needed me now
What’s the problem I can’t see
You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again
I’m not falling apart

Ohh, ooh

today was great till the end..it breaks me..

2008-12-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

Today was great...9am werk..came at 10.30am...LOL...kena lecture by boss..hahakz..
go in left..go out on the right..seriously..im punctual at a certain occasion..but i don't know work..i like to turn up late...LOL
work in cafe..bored..no customer..so work at mcdonalds..hahakz..Fun..
den at 3pm..back at cafe..WOW..me n taufik been hit by lots of customers...within 1hour..we made $200 sales..WONDerful..hahakz..work with maryam till 6pm..went dinner with Hus n Yan...went home with radhia..
here comes the end of the day tt breaks me..
Saw her with her guy at busstop walking..she didnt see me...cuz i was behind her..
i dunno y..my leg actually brings me to her opposite block..to see her one last tyme...
Memories flashing back in my mind..i almost burst into tears..but i juz cant cry..
my heart wans me to be strong...
suddenly..Bro md nor,bro imran,bro raimi,bro ramlan,bro rock,sis clar,sis zura,sis wana,lil sis ikah n lil sis radhia images flashes on my mind..n i cried..
Thanks guys/gals...u have made me strong..bond of friends..I lurve u all...

Happy

2008-12-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happen today..
hope my grandma is feeling better..
werk as usual..tiring..but enjoyable..with wana n crystal..
Sleep tyme...LOL..
ARghh...Audiohouse having sale...Pay havent come..

Twilight zone today..but happy...

2008-12-13T01:16:00.000+08:00

7am in the morning..lol..accompany my grandma go eye operation at NUH...worried bout her..but thank god..she's okae..the next day den have to check-up again...otw home..meet raimi..smoke with hym for a while..den i meet imran..we go PW together..play pool..he LOSE...6games to 1..hahakz..
i went to buy my pendant...

nice ryte...the next pendant im gonna buy is the crocodile tooth..hehehekz..
spend tyme inside mcdonalds crew room with bro rock n my lil sis rahdia..oso not to forget sis wana...

sis wana n bro rock

Trying to kill bro rock

Sweet lil sis radhia..

otw home in bus...

And ME..!!...hahakz

Tt's all for today...see ya nxt tyme..Lurve u guys/gals whu is with me today...Muackz...

2008-12-11T01:16:00.000+08:00

Today is tiring...from sch...no idea how to burn tyme..so i took bus 31 with raimi till toa payoh..den he go meet his couzy..i took bus 26 straight to bedok..den take 196 to PW...but it's only 2pm...i start work at 5pm!!!..hahakz...
work with sis ikah and bro rock..Fun..but tiring..
hahakz...i fall in love with this song..from Barry Manilow..."Can't smile without you"..me n bro rock sing this song at cafe...
enjoy listening to the song at my blog..guide u with lyrics..
GTG..too tired liao...need rest...will blog again tmr..Lurve ya guys/gals whu were with me today...Muackzz...!!

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, Im finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you

Hectic day..

2008-12-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

Today is quite a day..
my uncle on my father's side passed away yesterday eveing at johor..he and his family, eldest son,wife and 2youngest child on the journey to malacca by car..Shit happens..they met with a accident..my uncle passed away, the rest survived with serious injuries..i feel sad for them..i suppose to work today at 1pm..but decided to stay at my late uncle hse till his body and oso the rest of the family reached home from johor..
so i reached werk at 5pm..tired...finish at 9pm..my late-uncle is a great mucisian..a good frend of ramli sarip..but Tuhan sayang dier..tt's y he's nt here anymore..
got nothing else to blog today..so..im off..see ya tmr...Lurve ya...

Nothing..

2008-12-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

Today start of without myself going to sch..took 3flu pills yesterday..and hv a nice sleep..woke up..it's tyme for me to go work..but i didnt go..again same as yesterday..i nvr went out of the house..suddenly home is a calm place for me to stay nowadays..smoke abit too much today...hahkz...my adq syg borrowed from me money..i'm glad to help..waiting for me PES2009 for PC to finish D/L..wahahakz..
downloading oso Star Wars Trilogy..all the 6movies r inside..Fifa online 2 is back..again i beat imran..hehekz..come on imran..muz train lots..
my Bday is coming...15days more...wahahakz..but..it's gonna be abit different tis year..My wishlist is up...either one out of the 3items i wan for my Bday...u can check out..i put a link on the 3items...hahakz..Won't ask much though..guess will be celebrating alone..my family don't celebrate Bday..nt much frends...nah..God..juz giv me a clean bill of health and oso to all my beloved frends...
tyme to go..below is the lyrics from the song called Like A Knife..it's my blog song..hear it..and understand it..LOL...
Love u guys/gals...

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life

Today is the same as yesterday

2008-12-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

There's a quote by Washington Irving,
"Love is never lost. If not reciprocated,
it will flow back and soften and purify the heart."
And also from Christina Georgina Rossetti,
"Better by far you should forget and smile than that you should remember and be sad."

These two quotes makes me feel better today at home..i was all along at home today..nvr went to sch,nvr step out of the house..im just afraid..and believe it onot..though i have cigerattes with me..i didnt even smoke for the world day today..
Supposely,after i shld be with crystal and wana to play pool..since crystal cant make it last minute..and im in my world..better off dont go..
the whole day, my left hand..where the last tyme i fractured my finger,it feels pain..i can feel the hatred tt my hand is feeling..n oso the sadness..it's crying..i can hear it..but my tears juz wont come out..i dunno whether its a good thing or a bad thing..I feel better today..i wanna say this out loud...

You're just another chapter in my book titled "Life."

A new chapter needs to begin...i won't just sit and wait..neither will i search..i will just follow the flow of my lyfe..
But still...memories of her..nvr will i forget..
Cheers my friends...Sorie for ignoring u all today...Lurve u all..

Its too sudden

2008-12-04T03:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz...
im like a biscuit..when there's a new flavor being unleashed..im being discarded..
i cant believe she's moving on tt fast..after all this 1year 2montsh 17days with her..im been living with her lies??..i already expected tt will happen...she found someone at her workplace??..it's the same scenario tt happens the day i met her..
Oh god...r u playing a fool with me??...i've been going through ordeals tt been given by u God..im fighting to survive..heartbreak after another..is this wad u wan me to go through..?Heartache??..everything tt i had..all have been taken away by her on 25oct 2008...my pillar of strength had shattered..my heart broken into pieces..
im slowly picking up the pieces,finding my strength back untill nw..but yet again..u dealt me with another blow...everything back to square one..finding my pieces back again..i lost my strength again..i wanna end this pain of mine im suffering..
im falling again..
im holding on to a branch tt is gonna break soon..
im tired of being mr nice guy..cuz in the end of the day..no one appreciates it..n step over my head..once is enough..twice is too much..
God..one more tyme...i dunno how am i gonna control myself..
i fractured my finger becuz of her...till now..even though its totally cured..i still feel pain n sadness on my hand whenever im going through shits..
i dunno wad to do..im juz lost ryte nw..
Lost in my own world again..

Sleeping day..

2008-12-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today kinda sleeping day for me...sorie guys n gals who msg me..i didnt reply..Sleeping lar...for imran n raimi..u made a good choice coming to my hse n knock the door hard..hahakz..Nothing much happen today cuz totally spent my tyme at home with them..Imran SCARED...hahakz..when he watch 4BIA...wish he will have sleepless night tonite..Raimi lost his one side of the shoe..*SADS*..lol..
Juz downloaded DIDO new album...SAFE TRIP HOME..

I give a rating of 4/5...nice to hear if ur going to sleep...nice vocals...
Okae...tt's it for today...See ya guys tomoro...Lurve ya...

Monday not really blues

2008-12-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

today's a great day..im in twilight zone..havent sleep..lol..imran n raimi came my hse..we went to sch together..had breakfast..n DAmn..the coffee too sweet for me..went to class..do stupid Phase test..lAme..i dunno how to do..hahakz..but still pass... After sch..straight went to work..tiring..especially nvr slp... hahakz..Work was FUN..and totally..i had FUN doing latte art with bro Rock.. i teach hym abit..and WALLA..he can do already..but still need practice.. Here's 10pictures of latte..Bro Rock n me did..

Finish werk..and finally hear radhia talk..thought she's angry..but maybe she's not..
ask her to watch madagrascar2 with me at laptop..but sadly..she has to go back...
in the end..Bro Rock, Sis ikah n me go back together..i bus at tamp..coincidently took same bus with fiza..lol..
tt's all for today folks...see ya tmr..Lurve u guys/gals whu were with me today...

It has begun

2008-12-01T04:11:00.000+08:00

Blog has arrived...thanks to my bro,imran...
end of today will be 2pictures of latte art i've done today at work..nytez

2008-12-01T02:54:00.001+08:00

Smile always brother! Have fun.

*Appreciation*